I am not doing my best recently.. My mind is everywhere but where it needs to be. I am crying out for help, but it seems pointless. I am going through highs and lows. I'm going to be fine.. But you know what I am thinking.. I cant believe I am still thinking of these things years later but yet here we are. ... Well anyway i should be studying or doing my assignments.. I just wanted to say hey
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give me something! New music? ... please
its because you understand.
you just know..
fuck you for being my addiction.
i miss my escape
where i can forget about it all
and how much i hate everything
a place where i can get high and not think...
... am i too broken? is that why you let me go?
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too stupid?! is that it!? that i have to find things i relate to or stupid cringy quotes because i cant find my own words to describe how i truly feel. maybe you meant every degrading word you threw at me. you had your fun. i let you break me. and after i dont even know how long i am still picking up my pieces. ...
and after all of it i still wonder if i would throw it all away just to get one more high.
yes, i would.
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...because you make me feel like that little girl trapped in the corner of the closet. You make me feel so alone.
