Trust me when I say "You have changed",
They say hurt me with the truth rather than making me feel better with a lie.
And I expect nothing but this.
The moment I came to know that you started lying to me, my heart stopped beating for a second.
I have always told you that one thing I like the most about you is that you are always honest with me
So when I tell you that you changed, trust me.
Whenever I told you that something bothered me about what you did or said, you often focused on how I reacted instead of focusing on how that made me feel
As a result, you started hiding things and you talked about trust which made me confused.
I understand you did what you did to not make me sad but,
If only for once you thought of putting your logic aside and thought about how it made the situation worse you would have noticed too.
So trust me when I tell you that you changed.
I am not a complex person, all I ever wanted was to put in the same effort if you really wanted me that way,
all I ever told you was to focus on who you actually wanted to be with without making the other person feel stupid,
All I ever did was to defend you for your behavior when I had so many reasons to just quit,
It must be overwhelming for you, the sudden attention, the validations, the new social circle, I understand everything but what you couldn't understand is that's what I always wished for you too.
But, when you suddenly notice that people do notice you, you forget the one person who truly wished for you to be seen.
You say your Intentions are just to be friends one day and more than friends the next day, but what about my feelings, should I just pretend to not have anything at all when it's all that I think about?
I understand that I am an important person who you cannot let go of easily but have you ever thought about the damage this situation caused for us to drift apart?
I am to blame, I get it. I could have handled things better and made myself an emotionless flesh who just pretends to be a friend to keep you around but what about the dreams I dreamt about us?
The plans that I have already pictured with you,
The long walk routines that I've been wanting to go to,
Small ice cream breaks now and then,
Sneaking kisses,
Cuddling while we watch something funny,
Playing games for fun,
Cooking while trying to keep our hands to ourselves,
A hug after a small argument,
A text message after reaching home after spending the best time with you,
Crying for the day to not be done,
Saying cheesy things just to annoy you,
Pissing you off just so we can end up coaxing,
What must I do with all of these?
What I failed to understand is that when you can put your efforts into a person who is already taken and make things according to their convenience,
Why couldn't you think about me and fix things that have changed over time?
Have you ever thought about how excited I must have felt when I thought about finally being able to do the things I have always dreamt about just for you to tell me that I am just another person with whom you are going to see if it works.
So trust me, when I tell you that you have changed.
