I loved you in secret - walter x henry (young royals)

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Tw: panic attack

Henry

As soon as we entered the room, Walter laid down into his bed, snuggling into the blanket. I walked to him and sat down on the bed. I put my hand on his cheek and stroked it lightly. He was leaning into my touch, turning his face more up to my hand.

"Can you lay down with me?"He asked, voice barely above a whisper.

"Sure"I laid down facing Walter, who closed his eyes. My hand stayed on his cheek.

He looked completely tired. I'm so thankful Wille called for me when he saw that Walter was having a panic attack. I've never seen Walter having one but I knew what to do since my sister had them sometimes and so I learned what to do when someone has a panic attack. I felt the need to talk to him about it but he looked so tired and panic attacks can be really tiring so I decided to let Walter have a bit of a nap before I would talk with him about what happened.

I caressed his cheek and I felt his arm reaching out for me, pulling me closer to himself and hugging me around my waist. Guided by Walter, I shuffled closer to him so that he could hide his head between my chin and my chest. I put my arm around his arm, wanting to keep him safe and close with me.

I almost dozed off, when I heard a soft knock on the door. Walter was still holding onto me so I tried to entangle myself from his embrace. Softly, I took his arm, which was hugging me around my waist, put it over my body and laid it down in front of his chest. Carefully, I got up and opened the door. It was Alexander.

"Hey"

"Hey"He said"I've brought you something from dinner, like you asked for"He gave me two plates with food.

"Oh thanks"I took the plates, having already forgotten I asked for them.

"Is everything okay? What happened? I just heard Wille call for you and didn't actually see anything, I was talking with Samuel."He seemed to genuinely care.

"Walter wasn't feeling well, I think Wille saw it, so he called for me since he doesn't know him but Walter is resting now"I explained, deciding not to tell him that Walter had a panic attack. It's his own decision to tell what actually happened.

"Okay, that's good, I'll have to go now. Playing chess with Nils"

"Sure, thanks for the food again."I closed the door behind myself after Alexander. I put the plates with food at the desk and sat down at the chair in front of it. I wanted to wait to eat together with Walter.

I sat there looking over at Walter laying in his bed. He was sleeping there peacefully, facing the wall, his chest rising and falling at a steady pace, much better than earlier and he looked calm.

I enjoyed watching him sleep, being able to see him like this felt special, especially since we first kissed a couple of days ago.

I admired him sleeping for a couple more minutes until he slowly started to turn a bit. He rolled over until he was facing my direction, blinking his eyes until he opened them lightly. First, he seemed to be searching the room, then his eyes fell on me and he gave me a little smile. After returning the smile, I walked to the bed and kneeled down next to Walter.

"Thank you for being here"Was the first thing he said while reaching for my hand and taking it in his.

"Where else should I be?"

"In the common room with the other's?"He suggested,"Or at training?"

"Oh fuck. August is gonna kill me."

Walter snorted.

"But I wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now"I assured him.

He laid his hand on my hand and looked up at me smiling just with his eyes, planting small kisses on the back of my hand.