Forever Heaven (On Hold)

Healing my Pati babu

Our marriage has experienced deep wounds and miraculous healings and for that, I will always be grateful to Dugga maa. ~ a phrase from Bondita's diary.

Beneath the cloudy,black sky the love of earth was blossoming. The cool night breeze and the moon playing hide and seek with the clouds, all these views were further enticing the hearts of the lovers. It was like the whole night will fly before your eyes.

But leaving these views aside, two souls were lost in their own world.

Lost in his premises, Anirudh was lying quietly with his head in Bondita's lap. It was relaxing. Her expert and soft fingers, stroking his scalp and tendrils was giving a different kind of pleasant feeling to his heart. This gave him certitude that now he is finally at home, with his own Sansar.

Here Bondita, she said nothing after what he said previously. Maybe he was seeking support and time and she was ready for it. He is not able to tell her anything. This clearly means that he is going through a huge emotional turmoil.

In such situation, it is her duty to give him time, understand him, give him the love and trust for which he is yearning. Instead of acting curiously like those crazy lovers and forcing him to provide every detail out of his mouth, she has to behave patiently with him. Let him be comfortable first.

It has been half an hour since he had said nothing. Half an hour ago when she had asked him to clarify his statement , he simply placed his head in her lap, which left her very surprised and scared.

"Bondita" he hushed in his meek voice,still his head on her lap and he was staring at nothing. His eyes were not closed but his vision was not clear.

Finally, he was ready to convey something. Okay. "Hmmm" she tried to promote him. "I..I...want..to say that..that..." he started while stuttering.

"That?" She asked, curiously.

"Th..That, I am..feeling shy" he confessed with a hue smile.

What? He wanted to tell this? But she was not expecting this. Actually this is very strange and..and...weird. Okay so he was feeling shy. But....

"Why?" Oh no! She wasn't supposed to ask this. She swear it was just a slip of tongue. A regretted question this was.

"Because..because..I feel shy" he was giggling a little. She couldn't see his face properly as he was laid sideward but not on his back. "You are...teas..teasing me Bondu?" he asked, giggling again.

Teasing? Why will she? Damn it! This was so difficult situation.

"Bondita?"

"Hmmm"

"Say something" he hushed, his tone very low.

"W..what?" she whispered. Her breath ragging while her heartbeat was racing high. The crimson cheeks. Thank god he wasn't aware about them.

"Anything"

Anything? How can she? Here he was feeling shy and god knows what is the reason. She haven't faced the shy him. Okay, No. No wait. She had. She had faced the shy Pati babu, a lot of times. But atleast he used to be conscious. But now? He is subconsciously uncontrollable being who is blushing and maybe...maybe...flirting with her. Maybe. Once she had read that one novel she got to know about this term. So she isn't sure that it is really what she is assuming or not. It sounds quite similar.

"Bondita?" he whined again like a cat.

"Yes" she replied softly while rubbing his right cheek softly and receiving his cute giggle on it again.

"It's tickling" admitting he turned towards her a little. "You haven't returned my kissy" he reminded her again.

"Sakha babu, what are you saying?"she gasped while facing the other directions but not him. He was behaving very adamant today. Desperate to..to...get a kiss...from..from..her. How can she do that? Here she is feeling shy and he is asking for it as if it is very easy task to do. God knows how she got the courage to kiss him that night.