The forgotten key

Chapter eight

I hate my life. Summer break is over and today is the first day of school. It's just too early to simply exist. Right now I stand of Elijah's house waiting that he'll come out so we can go together to school. Our moms 'forced' us to go together but I'm glad about it. It's a new school and it's good that I have him so I'm not alone. I mean I have friends now  but we're not all going to the same school. I'm wearing a navy blue skirt with a white short-sleeved shirt and a matching blazer 'cause this is the school uniform. It's my first time wearing a uniform so I feel a little weird. At my old school there were no dress code so we came in random clothes. But the school is also not a regular school. It's more elite as I searched on the home page. The school I went were a public school so nothing fancy. I'm really curious how it is and how the people are.
"What you thinking about?" says Elijah as he walked out of the house.
"You know this I moved here so new school new me. No really I'm a little nervous when I'm for real. I've never been to a private school." I say while walking to his car.
"Chill out it's nothing special. But you should know some people like you really and some just want to be friends with your money."
"How come. I mean they're all rich."
"Yes but some people just want to be friends with the richest."
"Okay but I'm not so rich."
"Come on you live in a house with garden in a good place."
"Yeah but you know like  Ryan, Ryan is super rich but we're just wealthy. You know what I mean."
"Yeah I get you. But really these guys are not that arrogant. You friends with him at the first sight. And you have me on your side." He says as he turns his head to my direction and blings at me.
"Hahaha yeah I hope so."

If you're wondering what my brother or where he is, he's sick at home because he went on several party's in a really short time and made out with girls. I've never saw him that sick. So he can't go to school but I don't think that's too bad for him.

As we're walking to the front door Elijah greets a couple of his friends. They seemed friendly.
"Wow it looks even better in real life."
"What? Me..? Yes I know.."
"Not you, the school."
"Oh nuh looks just like a private school"
"Oh come on this school looks fire ."
"Yes I would love if it was on fire."
"Okay where are we heading to?"
"The office so you can get your things."

"Hello I'm Juliette Emery and the new student."
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After I got the important things I head to my class. I'm luckily with Elijah in the first period. These halls are so big it's like a maze. We have English now and I hope the teacher is nice.
"Today we have our new student. Juliette tell us about you."
How I hate these kind of situations.
"Ehm.. So my name is Juliette I moved here in the summer. Yeah that's it"
"Oh okay.. You can sit next to Katherine." I guess he wanted me more to say about myself.
"Ugh no not the new one." The girl named Katherine complains loudly.
Girl I don't even know you. How could you dislike me when I just walked through the door.?!
I sit next to her without saying anything. Elijah sits with his friends on the other side of the room. She lookes at me with a disgusted face.
"Sorry?" I say because this girl is fucking annoying.
"What?!" She replies with a annoyed tone.
"Why do you dislike me? I literally just walked  through this door? What do you have against me?"
"Mr. Elliot can she  sit next to someone else?" She says without looking at me.
"What? Why should should she?"
"I just don't want her near me."
"When you have such a big problem with her switch with Elijah."
"Uh no why can't she switch with him..?"
"Katherine you switch with Elijah. Now."
God such a drama queen. She packs her things and switched with Elijah. But she gave me one disgusted face before she left.
"So I'm Elijah and you?" He says with a big grin.
"Hello I'm Juliette nice to meet you."
"Quick question. Why does she hate me?"
"Who? Katherine.. I don't know but she's a bitch to everyone so it's nothing new."
"She has a crush on you."
"What? I don't know."
"Yeah definitely."
"Emery, Weston please be quiet or do you have anything to say.?" Mr. Elliot says with a serious face.
"No sorry."

...

The bell rang and its now lunch time. I don't really know how I should make friends. Should I eat in the bathroom? Or just read outside? But I can't be the weird introvert girl. Not now.
"Do you come with?" Elijah ask me
"Of course. I mean yeah okay I just say no to all of my new friends so I can sit with you.., you know."
"Hahaha yeah sure."

"Elijah took you really long where were you?" A boy asked him.
"I'm as usual. That's Juliette be kind to her."
"Hey, ehm I'm Juliette and new so... yeah." Gosh I sound so dumb
They said who they are and welcomed me.
"So how comes that you know each other." Tommy asked.
"We live next to each other and our parents are friends." I say
"Ohhh neighbors huh."
"Yeah and so?" Elijah asked
"No nothing."

After school we both go home. Okay it wasn't that bad but it was weird, to be the new one with no idea of the school, but I'm glad that I had Elijah. His friends were kind to me.

But on this day I miss him so much. Dad is the reason we're here. If he weren't dead I would live my life back at home. Penny, Nolan and I would have spent the summer break together and made shit. Dad would ask me how the new classes are and the kids there. And if I said that that's not what I thought and be sad he would said warm words and give me a big long hug. He would say that everything turned good and that he's there for me.

I'm sitting in my bed staring at the wall. Tears are coming out my eyes. The last weeks been okay or no they been great but... without him I can't have great weeks. I didn't cried the last weeks but now it's coming. I can't but cry even harder. Gavin sits outside in the garden and mom is at work. So I don't have to be quiet. So I cry the weeks out. It's so unfair. So unfair that I'm here but he's not. Why? Why the fuck he had to die? I'm not okay. It's so rough and I'm too weak for this bullshit. I'm glad about our neighbors but I would love it even more if dad would be here too. I miss being that loved. He gave me the love thousand of peoples would need. I feel I don't deserve to be that loved. It's fucking unfair.

Dad and I had such a strong bond that can't be described with words. I hate that I don't know how my life is going without him. I hate that my life is going on. But hell no I would never kill myself. It's like a lot more than I just feel. I find it too much for me. I don't fucking know. All I know that I miss him so much...

It's now 3:56 a.m. and I can't sleep. I stare at my ceiling for hours. I just can't sleep. I took a nap after my breakdown and now I'm full awake.
I think I should take fresh air. Mom and Gavin are sleeping so I have to be really quiet.
Outside of our house I sit on the porch. I don't really know what I want. I'm a bit freezing I should've brought a hoodie or something.
Eli
Me: still up?

I don't know why I'm writing him but who else should I write than him.

Eli: yeah, can't sleep?
Me: yes u?
Eli: want to talk?
Me: yes
Me: sitting on the porch

He comes out of the door with a black hoodie and his pajama pants.
"Hey"he says with a kind smile.
"Hey"
He sits next to me.
Then we're quiet. We both look on the street. Both thinking about something.
"Why are you still up?" I ask because I wanna know what's in his head is.
"Couldn't sleep you know. And you? Your face is teary did you cry?"
"Yeah you know rough day." I say like it's nothing.
"Your dad. That's why you cried."
"Yeah miss him really badly."
"How was he? Tell me now about him."
"You know he was the loveliest man ever. So funny and sweet. Always had good words to say. Like a really good person. You know he has such a big heart and love in his soul. I don't get it that he had to die."
"Sounds like a person you wanna be good with. And I get that, I mean Logan was such a strong but I guess he didn't thought that." he says looking in the sky.
"I really appreciate you, I hope you know that"
"You know that I don't think otherwise." He says looking at me with a little smile. We look at each other's faces. Scanning every detail.
"You know that you are also a warming and loving person." He says with a lower voice.
I actually never thought of that.
"Thank you for saying nice things like that and I think you are such a strong person too." I say to him with a smile.
"We really don't deserve this shit." He says looking away.
"Yeah..."
Now we both silent looking straight at the street.
"Is it okay if I sleep at yours tonight?" I ask
"Yeah of course, you can sleep at mine whenever you want."

After a while we go to his house.
We go straight to his room it's really late. I mean it's in the middle of the night. I hop on the bed where I slept last time. He lays on the bed too. He turned the light off and we both fell asleep.