Shivaay looked at the mirror examining his reflection. His girlfriend's voice was now ringing in his head. They had a fight.
"I am so sick of you."
And he felt the same sinking-in feeling in his gut.
"You cling to me too much. I feel suffocated even by looking at you. No wonder your family avoids you."
"You get attached to people too easily. You need to give them space."
Give them space.
I need to give them more space. I decided. Maybe then they won't avoid me like this.
Was he too clingy?
I would have been, or why else they would leave him to his own company.
Was he suffocating?
I am too overbearing and overwhelming, that must be the reason why they avoid talking to me. I impose myself over them. I need to put an end to this.
Is that the reason why he arrived home to a dark house at the end of the day?
Tia is right. Even his family avoids his presence.
The reason why he had to eat alone?
The food was lying cold on the table. I didn't have the appetite anymore, the dark walls of the mansion haunted me.
The reason why nobody called him when he was in the office?
I have observed how my employee's spouses or family called them when he held them back, or simply because they just wanted to pass the words of affirmations and affection. I wondered as to why no one called me?
Or was this the reason why, he ate the bland food from the office pantry while everyone relished the appetizing lunchboxes packed especially for them. Why did my mother never pack them for me?
Or when he didn't return home on designated time?
Why did no one call me when I stayed the whole night in the office? Or when I returned home the next morning? Why did nobody enquire? Do they hate my presence that much?
The answer was one, my family was sick of him.
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kindly heed the warnings as book deals with sensitive topics
story contains : toxic relationship + anxiety disorders + depression + isolation + lack of communication + mental abuse in relationship + open ending (maybe on a good note) + misunderstandings
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Fiksi Penggemar"You get attached too easily." Shivaay frowned. He never realised that. "You need to give people space." And he starts doing the exact. He starts distancing himself from the people, letting himself be devoured by the darkness that surrounded the d...
