How to save a mess worth saving

A mind of her own

Look at her, how pitiful she was. Her, that pathetic, little... Thing trying to take back what was once hers... Her mind. It kinda makes me feel sorry for her... NO... no it doesn't, I only liked to force more and more pain onto her, yeah that's it, what am I thinking. Sure she could try to take back her mind but how could someone as small as her do such a big task. 

 Her perspective

 Have you ever felt so small, so useless, so ... Different, and no matter how hard you try you are just continuously stuck in your small hole crying, clawing at anything possible that could ever have at least one small chance of helping you out? When you feel like this hole your in will collapse at any time at all causing you to die from suffocation. Some people wish for another year, month, week, day or anything they can get their hands on just to stop their hole from collapsing but some people wish and want for this inevitable doom trying to get the hole to cave in as fast as possible letting them escape from this hole in maybe another life... But these people always end up regretting that decision.                           

and you know what, those years, months, weeks or whatever are the things that are holding your hole up ... HOPE... That's all it was. Just that simple four letter word, holding so much meaning, so much courage, so much, well, hope.

 For a while, I wished that my hole would collapse but now, I only wished for that time back. Sure I had a few shit days and I'm probably going to have more shit days but a day is a day and I'm going to get over it one way or another. 

 Not her perspective

There she goes again, trying to take back her mind, but, no she can't, can she?... No, she can't 

 Her perspective

 I'm going to get better, I'm happy, I have so much in front of me, and so much ahead 

 Not her perspective

 Stop this is not how this is meant to go, I'm the powerful one, SHUT UP YOU IDIOT!!!! 

 Her perspective

 I, I, I... Who am I kidding, I'm just an idiot who needs to shut up... That's all I herd in my mind... Shut up you idiot and that's all I was. An idiot.

A/N: big spoiler in the last sentence