How to save a mess worth saving

My final words

First - the opinions that I say in this paragraph are just mine, don't take it too seriously.

So, this is the last chapter... Wow. Now this is the message in the end where I talk about depression, cutting, suicide and all that jazz and if you think you have got your life all worked out than sure as hell you don't need to read this but if you want another persons opinion into you life haha than please I advise you to read. Oh and this also explains the story as well. I was debating weather to write this but I'm pretty sure it sums up the whole story :)

But first onto depression:

This girl in the book had a pretty bad time for a while and I guess she didn't have a very good house, or a father to share it with but at least she had one. She had food even know she didn't eat it, she had hot water, she had clothes for every day, a bed, a fridge, a mother who loved her, a school, her health, money and so many other little things that she took for granted and yet she was still sad, thinking that her life was shit because she didn't have what others had. She and many of you think that you don't have anything think that nothing is going for you and think that getting depressed is you only way out but it's not. You have so much and you don't even realise it.

And I'll tell you something, depression is a mind thing. Much like this girl it was all just her mind, you don't needs anti depression drugs to get you out of this place you are in because it's all just your mind. Get out of where you are, like the girl as soon as she was out of her house she felt okay she felt the beauty around her and the calmness that was blowing threw the breeze. Just go and do something that doesn't let you think about constantly being sad.

Cutting:

I'm just going to be strait with you here, cutting really pisses me off because it shows how much of a pussy you really are. I sure many people have told you that cutting doesn't solve anything and I am yet to hear a good excuse that opposes this comment.

You have probably said that you cut because of what people have done to you but you honestly don't see how stupid that sounds. Every cut that you inflect on yourself is what you did to you because it is not the people who are slicing that razor across your arm, it is you, all you. See, I could call one person a dick and they'll could laugh it off and call me a dick too but if I called someone else a dick and they could cry about it and go cut their fricken flesh open... Come on who else sees how pathetic the second person is, and I bet you can't guess who has more friends, that's right the first person because he is so much less butt hurt that you with you little cutting problem.

 Suicide:

I was debating weather to talk about this as I have not had much experience with it but than I thought - what does killing yourself do. Escaping your problems by killing yourself won't do anything. Now in the story I didn't try to kill myself but it's not like the thought wasn't getting contemplated over and over again in my mind. Killing yourself only places the horror onto someone else. Imagine a family member or a friend finding you body all cut up with your throat slit, or you foaming from the mouth draped over your desk with an empty bottle of pills next to you, or what if you weren't dead yet and they found you seizing or with your final breath in there hands leaving them with the question - how could I have helped.

Nothing should ever have to lead to this bull crap. Ever.

The story:

The story is told in two perspectives- her perspective and not her perspective. I see how this story could get confusing... Her perspective is of this girl who I have left un-named, she could be me, she could be you take it how you see it. Not her perspective takes on the form of her mind at the end showing that her mind was tricking her into depression when all she really was, was confused.

I had covered a lot in this story such as eating disorders, friend problems, violent/mean boyfriends, insecurities, families, jealousy etc. But I know there are so many more problems that weren't covered. I just hope that you all can read this and see a new side of life. Even if you aren't depressed I hope you like this story.

The end :)