How to save a mess worth saving

Quiet eyes and sleeping minds

She can't even take back her mind, it too powerful for her. But, she did make a good point, like things could get better, I guess...

 Her perspective

 I wasn't crying, screaming or getting angry, I wasn't fazed to much that my mind overpowered me yesterday. I just felt neutral, I didn't feel like my hole was going to cave in just yet, but I did feel like I only had a few days until it will start to crumble and sooner or later, completely cave in causing me to suffocate like most other unfortunates.

Today mum basically yelled at me to go to school so I guess I had to, I have already missed to much this week. So that's what I did, I got ready, I began to put my hair up in its usual ponytail, but today, I didn't want the boring usual, so I left it out, I didn't put in my contacts in and make up was at it's all time low sense... forever, I guess I just thought I didn't need to try to change myself anymore, I liked the way I looked. 

I took the bus today, Adam was on it again. Fear struck my body like a lightning bolt sending a cold breath down my neck. Once again he came up to me and said My lady. But today, when that lightning bolt that struck me, well, it charged me up, it gave me strength and energy. I was strong. 

He held out his hand but I brushed it away. Don't, is all I said.                                                                                  He looked at me in disbelief but I just walked away and sat in a vacant seat, but was soon joined by him. I pretended like he wasn't there but once again in his little routine be put his hand on the top of my thigh.                                                                                                                                                                                        You need to leave, I said in a slightly angry tone whilst grabbing his hand off of my thigh.                      And what if I don't. He replied grabbing my hand off his.A fire started inside me, he still thinks I just a toy.                                                                                                                                                                                                 Adam I don't like you, I never have. I'm breaking up with you and if you don't move your hand I'll scream at the top of my longs alerting everyone that your just a sly pervert... I said this loud enough for the year 11 girls behind me to hear. 

Hey do you want to come back here with us. The girls behind said to me. Adam made no noise, still in shock from what I had just said to him.                                                                                                                            Yes please I said to the girls. One of them stood and pulled Adam off the seat allowing me to get up and sit next to the other girl. The first girl whispered angrily to Adam something that I couldn't make out but all I herd was something like - if you ever touch her again I will sure come after you. And then, Adam got off the bus, not at his stop, but just in the middle of no where after which the other girl came to join us. Only at this time did I realise the second girl had her arms around me protectively holding me like I was a helpless baby bird. I felt so good.

Not her perspective

Wow this is a surprise. She is actually standing up for herself. She is pretty strong now.

Her perspective

I got to my school, after some talk with the girls. They were so nice and I had never even met them before, we went to different schools for gods sake. They made me feel so loved. As I got to school I started to walk in but as my eyes quickly looked around they stopped on one person in particular... Michael... 

The last time I was at school, I screamed at him that I was fine when I was anything but and he was the only one who spotted it. He was a true friend. It was like our roles were switched, this time as soon as our eyes met he was the one trying to hide his face but I saw him, and only him.

I dropped everything, my bag, phone and everything else and just ran to him, I ran to his as fast as I could and as soon as I got to him my arms wrapped around him holding him in tight. For some reason I stared to cry, I felt kinda bad, I must have got his shirt all wet. But I guess he didn't care because he just embraced me, holding me equally as tight. 

He broke from the hug and bent down on one knee holding me by my shoulders looking me strait in my glazed over eyes. I'm not okay, and your the only one who saw it, I said during breaths.                   No, no, no, it's okay, it's okay, everything is going to be alright, he said bringing me back into a hug. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I said into his shoulder over and over again. Michael was amazing, the best person I could ever ask for. He made me feel... Happy. Something I hadn't felt in so long, happiness. 

Not her perspective 

Well there you go she was happy, the only thing I had ever wanted for her. I made her feel ugly, stupid, fat, lonely and everything in between just so she knew what true happiness felt like. She had finally gotten something back that she never thought possible.  

                                                                                            Me... Her mind.