𝐈𝐥𝐥-𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 ✔️

48

A D O N I S

I get a few miles away. It's the middle of the night I think, but I'm not sure, I haven't been thinking of time. I've been thinking of her. Did I do this to her? Did I hurt her so badly to change her this much? When I looked at her, I knew she didn't see me the same way she once had. 

I walk along the dirt. But walking to where, where the fuck would I go without her? What would my life be like without her? 

This darkness inside me, it ruined it all, this darkness -

My feet stop. Darkness. I think about it for a moment. I think about if my thoughts could be true. If she could be experiencing the same thing as me right now. If that could be what has changed her.

I turn back around and continue running. This time I run toward her. I was not going to live without her. I was not going to leave her. 

Even if it meant I'd die. I'd rather die with her than live without her. 

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V A L E R I A

Who was I? What had I become? I fully wake up and get all my memories back. My hand covers my mouth as I realize everything I have done. All the people I killed, the innocent people, the destruction I was bringing to this Earth, the pain I brought to Adonis every day. 

"Oh my God," I whisper to myself as my eyes begin to fill with tears. I had killed so many people. I never wanted this, I never wanted to do this, I wanted to save, I wanted to help. But she was too strong. Too destructive. She was destroying the entire planet.

I couldn't let her do it anymore.

"Luella, where are we going?" she asks me as I run out of the building. "Luella! What are you doing!"

"I'm ending this," I say. 

All I brought was pain. To both the Earth and Adonis. I was no God, I was no leader, I wouldn't allow myself to destroy anything else. I was ruining Adonis' life. As long as I lived, he would be cursed to love me, and cursed to betray me. He would never know happiness. I needed to free him of me. I needed to free everybody of me. 

"Luella, what the hell are you planning? Luella!" she gets more frustrated as I ignore her.

"You can read my mind, see for yourself," I say bitterly as I continue walking. I would not allow myself to go one more day causing pain to anybody.

I never wanted any of this. I had just wanted to love who I wanted to love 200 years ago. I never meant to end up here. 

"You're going to kill us?!" she shouts as she sees what I'm planning.

I keep walking. And walking. And walking. It was the middle of the night but the sun would rise soon. I did not deserve to see another sun. I vowed that I would not see another sun. I would end this all tonight, all this pain and suffering I caused. 

With me dead, the Earth can return to normal, and Adonis would be free of his curse. He would finally have a chance to be happy. 

I walk until I reach it. I stand on the bridge, well, on the edge of it. I look down at the rough waters below me. It's windy, it blows my hair around, but I continue to stand and look down at the water, the only light is from the stars and the moon.

"Don't do this, Luella. If you die, I die," she says. "I've been looking out for you for centuries, and this is how you thank me?"

"You haven't been looking out for me, you've been destroying me," I say as I keep looking at the water.