Finally Believing in what He's Been Telling Me All along about myself

chapter 10

      Edward pov

She had tears falling from her eyes this time and this shocked the ever living hell out of me right now.

But what I was feeling through our connection she knew completely what I was asking of her.

"Yes!" Oh my God to hear that and feel that at the same time was amazing.

"I always believed in you Bella and we were only friends when I told you that and that surge happened for the first fucking time. Talk about a bam Bella and we were only friends at the time. Hello to get that with a friend like that I wanted to keep this friend. But still you were a female and I respect you and yeah I cared about you because you were my friend. I could actually be myself with for the first time. To me that was amazing to have a friend like that and then we developed into best friends and we always would tell each other shit that no one else knew about us not even our own family Bella. Fuck no I'm not giving that up I actually had someone I could talk about anything without the worry of anyone else knowing even though both of tend to slip some of the time because that's how we are around each other and sometimes we tend to forget that other people our around us because they well disappeared from us when we were together and we tended to get carried away. That's us though. Like now where connected as one and joined together but we're not doing a damn thing we just take the time and enjoy this and a lot of time enough for us. Then we discovered the stress relief ball for each other and well no skin were fully clothed we just need that oh I know pressure relief value relived in a whole different way and if sit and really think about what other people do together we can't do that and joined together like this if you pay attention. But it's always us together the other way releasing all our stress and everything else any we figure out a different way to relieve that pressure building in the both at the same time but we're not like this never. We can't because this is not what the other is to us and we need each other for both we discovered. Not giving that up either with you." I told her.

"I never understood why man thought using their own hand to release themselves is pleasure how is that even possible especially what I've seen going they're hands and watching themselves at the same time. Hello mind fucking reader here who wants to see everything in your head and women and how they seen me imaged and then adding other people I considered that fucking cheating. I didn't care if you had scars it didn't matter to me and when we thought it wasn't possible for you to have children with me it still didn't matter to me because I wasn't giving you up Bella hell I even asked you to marry knowing we probably couldn't have children and what did you find over my heart already before we got married but you're name on me over my heart then I got myself fixed for your ass too and I still got my ass kicked over it by you but guess what I'm still right here and I fucked myself more ways then on for you but oh no you still couldn't believe my ass couldn't leave of our new home and I told you actually what happens each time I tried without you but here's the big to this one to. You can't leave without me either and you still didn't believe and I felt and heard through the connection and you showing both me and my sister at the same time when I was only soul." I started laughing.

"God damn it let's hit me me with that and your fucking point jackass!" My wife started laughing.

"You tried everything and you kept bouncing backwards with the wheelchair. Slam! That's what I would feel and here you come out from hiding and mumbling then the way you acted with my food with that bitch the minute she wanted to use my kitchen all bets off you blocked her and even disregarded an order and explained to me why. You went ape shit that was my kitchen no was cooking in there expect for me and you told her that never saying our names to her it was fucking awesome then the amazing shit I was watching you do by yourself. I was so proud of you and to know how you got us help any means possible even they way and condition you were baby. You had nothing to fight back with to protect yourself you were in complete danger and your heart was getting ready to stop because you didn't have no way to recharge if you think about it because you couldn't go into tub room until it was your last resort and you knew that water is connected to our true home and you beg me to get you into that tub you were begging me but wouldn't say way and here it was you couldn't because of her being here. You knew it was almost to late for you to contact them. I put you in there. When my sister showed me your hand in that tub and I knew damn well I had control of that power then I was order to get in my body by you because you couldn't start my heart unless my soul was in my body and the minute you felt me go back in my body you restarted my heart and I felt the full impact of what was happening to you at that time. Oh my God to feel that and know what was happening and I knew something wasn't right about that person. I had to make sure you were safe first and what you pulled off and I heard and I opened my mind up to person uh uh! Whole different types of warnings Bells where going off in my head. Then the way she talked about her kids or husband kinda sounded off to me and I tapped into your on ability and I found out something and I couldn't tell because she was in the room and Emmett was on video with you but I kept noticing how you kept hitting the punishment button on if he was going to let things slip then the way she acted so confused about how the way you were moving your hands or body. Now you had already told me about this person. Things weren't adding up with what you told me you said she has no female parts down there this person had everything. Hormones baby. Other things weren't adding up so I had to make sure you were safe first because I also knew your heart was going to stop to. But I'm so sorry it played out like it did for you but I still never gave up you and there was nothing to forgive you about either because the minute you pressed that button that bitch holy fucking shit I heard her screaming with you but not on that screen and we have walls to fix baby slammed her through metal and wood." We both started laughing.