Finally Believing in what He's Been Telling Me All along about myself

chapter 21

       Edward pov

"That's exactly how I put it to!" I told her. "I had no fucking experience in that department at all how fucked did you figure that out and I didn't want to let on I was in experience either. But NOOO! You kept hitting me with bams!" I told her.

"Ohh, the hug!" She said and I nodded my head. "Yep! Hello you hugged me what the fuck do I do now I thought! I even jumped when you hugged me and froze stiff if you remember! A woman is actually hugging me oh hell!" She giggled.

"I remember that! I was so confused about that too and why you did that too. You were a man for God sakes!" She fell over laughing now.

She was even kicking her legs laughing so hard remembering that one.

"That should have given you your first clue baby that I have not been with anyone of the opposite sex damn it!" We were laughing so hard.

"I didn't know! But thinking about it now and the way you reacted to my hug!" She still kept laughing kicking her legs.

This is interesting! "Are you enjoying yourself baby?" I asked her. "Why yes I am thank you very much for giving me that memory because it is still funny as hell and to figure out why it makes it more funny to me because it happened to me!" Oh wow!

"Are first experience together!" She nodded her head still laughing.

I just smiled at her watching her and feeling through our connection and how this made her feel at the same time.

Then she laid there looking up at the ceiling and you could see or tell she was letting certain imagines play out in her head.

I sat up and pulled one knee up and sat my chin on my arms that were wrapped around my knee just watching her.

Because I could just feel her through our connection and I watched how her eyes would just move around as each image would go through her mind playing out in her head.

        Bella pov

I finally closed my eyes and let my body relax fully because it just wasn't coming that way for me that way.

I let my knees fall to the ground sideways and I lay my arms lazily over my stomach and I cleared my my mind then I let the memories flow of all of first experiences. Well mine and I guess his.

My hand reached up and touched the side of my face the first time he ever saw me and I leaned into that touched because it felt safe to me.

I actually felt safe for the first time in my life. I knew it was a man but I gave him the special gift of the connection that grow if he was true not to really hurt me and keep me and protect and not to hurt!

I also sent this through our connection. So Edward would know because I knew he was watching me.

My hand went back to it's place on my stomach. As I felt myself being carried and gently laid down.

Then I then I raised both hands up and pressed them flat against each other when I was inside that cubby.

Then I gently took my hand and took it into the other one. The first time he held my hand to keep me safe from everyone.

Then I remembered how he just let me hid behind him but I never touched him.

I even did my hands this way to. So he would know what he did for me. Then I lay my arms back down.

I could see things more clearly now then I did before.

Then I started signing to him.

You came to my rescue a second time!