The Wilds

Brandy pov

I just can't stop thinking about her. What is wrong with me? I feel like my mind is trying to tell me something but I don't know what it is. I think she's the same, but it's not for the same reason. I just know she can't stop thinking about Treech and it's hurting me too.
She feels hot. Not a sick hot but a scared one. I can feel her moving and making small noises in her sleep. Probably a nightmare.
I want to wake her but I don't want to scare her more than she is.
"Lamina...? Are you okay?" I sat up so I was no longer leaning against her. I moved my hand into her shoulder.
Apparently I got up at the right time because she immediately woke up, gasping for air.
"Hey hey hey, I've got you. Breathe, Lamina." I held her close, hoping that would help at least some. Her breaths were still coming out heavy but they had slowed down. I never let her go. I was too scared of losing her.
She fell back asleep. On me.
She said being "close to me" would help her sleep better. Treech probably did this with her, I'm guessing it makes her feel safe. I was leaning on the tree we slept under while she laid between my legs, her head on my stomach. I just knew my face went red when she wrapped her arms around me. I ran my fingers through her hair, which she seemed to like since I felt her body relax.

I wish the sun wasn't rising yet. I wanted more time alone with her. Is that weird? I have the urge to stay close to her but I'm not sure why. She's still on me but I know she'll have to move soon. People will notice, especially my brother. I know Tanner nor any of the others would be mad, it's just awkward having to explain.

I see Coral and Lucy gray in the distance, they seemed to be holding hands. Good for them I guess. Why does it hurt seeing them together? Is it jealousy? It feels weird. I want to stab myself, maybe that will stop me from thinking like that.

"You gotta wake up..." I quietly pleaded, hoping she heard me and I didn't actually have to wake her up.
"I've been awake."
". . ."
Lamina laughed softly (which was adorable) and I looked embarrassed. I had stopped playing with her hair and she lifted her head and frowned at me.
"I know you liked it but we need to wake up. You need food, Lamina. You're getting skinnier every day, you really need to eat."
She is going to die if she doesn't eat anything. I don't think I could go along with life if something happened to her. Can you care about somebody too much? If so, then I do. I can't handle her not wanting to eat. She's starving herself to death. At this point, you could look at her and see that she hadn't eaten.
"I don't want to..."
I put my hands on the sides of her stomach, her shirt moved with my hands. That's when I could tell just how skinny she was.
"Holy shit..." I could feel her ribcage through her shirt. It wasn't like she was a really skinny girl, she's just starving.
"I know, but you need to."
I need to change the subject. That was terrible! I don't want to make her insecure or hurt her in anyway. Is she going to cry again?
She buried her face into my stomach and groaned dramatically.
Oh thank god she isn't upset.
"Oh stop!" I jokingly snapped, followed by a laugh. I tried to joke around with her so she felt a little better. I hope I didn't make her feel bad after I touched her. I don't want her to hurt any more than she already is. She needs to get better, not worse.

We need to get up soon. She just looks so tired. I hope the dream she had wasn't scary.
I know it was though, by the way she woke up. I need to stop telling myself things.
Her breathing, the tears in her eyes, and the way she looked at me. Like she was begging for help.
She probably won't want to sleep after that. I want to ask her what happened but I'm scared of her crying again.
Like everything, it was probably Treech.
I would be like that too if I lost Tanner.