Sam monroe x y/n

5

I was sat on the curb of the road waiting for Sam to come pick me up. I had headphones on playing some music to block out the world that so kindly treated me like shit and still does.

All I could think about was Sam. It was like he was digging his was through my heart. I don't know why, I have taught myself through so many years to not grow attachments to anyone and I haven't until him. It's like he had put some sort of spell on me or something.

I really wanted nothing more than to not think about him, not because I didn't want to think about him but because I didn't want to get hurt again. It was weird because we had only ever talked a few times like at the tunnel and stuff so I don't know why I was feeling like this it was just stupid.

While I was lost in my thoughts I saw in the corner of my eye Corey's car pulling over next to my house. I got up not very excited to go to school but it was whatever. Seeing Sam ever since our awkward interaction last night I don't think it would be the same. Silently I opened the door and got in the passenger seat.

"Thank you for picking me up." I mumbled this quietly. "No problem." He also seemed a bit off it was probably just as awkward for him as it was for me but I was still appreciative of his action.

He wore a body tight short sleeve t-shirt that was black and had a red sort of meshy material going from his shoulder down to the bottom on his shirt adding some character to it. He had the same dark eyeliner on which to be honest I loved on him I think it suited him very well.

He drove in silence for a while, I usually thrived in silence but his presence made it sort of weird, tense even.

"I like your eye makeup" I commented trying to break the silence even though the comment was true. "Thanks, my step dad hates it which provokes me to do it even more." He didn't look at me just kept looking at the road, one hand hanging on top of the steering wheel and the other on his leg. Gosh his stance and the way he sat was just so.. I don't know just shut up.

I pulled out some pre-rolled joints I had hanging in my bag and realised I forgot a lighter. "Fuck do you have a lighter?" I asked. "Yeah." He lifted his hips up to be able to reach into his pockets and grab one out and hand it to me. "You want one?" I spoke as I lit one that was already in my mouth. He just nodded not speaking to me.

I slipped one to his mouth and lit it carefully not to burn him with his wreck less driving. I leaned back to my chair when I was done and took another hit of my joint doing a ghostie with it.

It was silent again for about another five minutes until this time he decided to break the silence. "I like your eyebrow piercing, glad you found something to put in it." I smiled back when he said that but then remembered also what happened that night when he tried to kiss me. I felt so bad for some reason I don't know why I did but I felt like I needed to say something about lashing out at him it just didn't feel right.

"Hey Sam, uhm I'm sorry about last night you know lashing out at you I just" I sighed "it just didn't feel right." Fuck. I feel like I worded that so wrong. Am I stupid?

It was quiet for a second. "It's okay I shouldn't have assumed you wanted to kiss me." He didn't seem hurt so I'm guessing my wording wasn't too bad. I was just stupid for feeling this way.

When we got to the turn for school I was preparing myself to Bare through the whole day but instead Sam turned the other way and started driving the opposite way of school. "Um schools that way." I wasn't complaining if he didn't want to go to school but I didn't know if he knew he took a wrong turn or not and also I don't know if I could deal with another intimate moment with him, it just made me more attached.

"Yeah I know but I'm hungry." He uttered looking at me slightly. I can't lie I was a-bit hungry too but I've always just pushed that feeling away since I was never a big eater.

"Okay, didn't wanna go to school anyway so I guess that's good." I just shrugged and continued hitting my joint.

We arrived at a random fast-food place that seemed pretty empty which was also good because I hated being around lots of people even though I go to school with lots of people, it's just different.

"You want anything?" He asked ever so softly.

"Nah I'm alright" I insisted "I might just steal some of yours." I joked around pushing his shoulder which caused a small smirk to creep up on his face.

We finally got to the doors and the bells above them jingled as we walked through. He motioned for me to get us a set while he ordered and I did so, picking a table with two seats next to a window.

I waited for him to order and receive his food while I looked outside studying the people passing by. I could tell what each person was feeling, she was angry, he was angry with her, that lady with an annoying baby was stressed and tired, that little boy was feeling lonely and so on. It was always something I was good at since I'm always so quiet I use my time to study people's actions, facial expressions and whatever else changes with your mood.

But the thing is with Sam I can't really do that much. He's always sort of different than what I expected, it's one thing that keeps me intrigued by him.

I smelt the salty chips and burger coming towards me which made me turn my head away from the window. Sam was walking over to the table with his food placed neatly on tray. I could tell he was hungry by how quickly he was moving.

Sam sat on the opposite side to me so we were facing each other and we began eating together. It was pretty quiet like it usually is with us. We engaged in some small talk nothing too interesting, occasionally brushing our hands together while reaching for some hot chips.

We finally finished the food it was nice and I have to say even though I only ate a few chips, it was nicely seasoned, not too salty.

We headed out after putting our rubbish and tray away and started driving again. It was only second period and we both had no intentions of going back to school so we started heading the other way again.

"You think my brother's alright" I muttered sarcastically. He chuckled a-bit before answering "yeah I think he's doing just fine." He also spoke sarcastically.

My legs were bent and leaned up on the dashboard of the passengers side, my bag in the back seat. "So where are we going now?" I honestly didn't really care where as long as it wasn't at school and I could get faded in peace.

Sam looked like he was thinking but honestly seemed a bit clueless, shrugging his shoulders. We both continued to think about where exactly we did want to go I was a bit uninterested picking the skin around my nails but then it felt like a light bulb had just set off in my mind.

"Oh my god, I know exactly where!" I sat up straight excited to show him where I wanted to go. "Let me drive so I can show you."

***

We arrived at an abandoned old office building  in the Carl park area that had been run down for a while now. I would always go here when I was feeling sad or something along those lines. I have never told anyone this before but I had a burning passion for art, especially graffitiing so I had a few art pieces around the building as-well.

"Shit this is pretty cool." Sam looked out the window looking around at the colourful walls that were filled with beautiful art pieces.

"Yea I know." I continued driving to the top of the car park. It went in a sort of loop around and around the building towards to roof.

When we arrived to the roof I parked towards the side and admired the view a bit more. I hopped out the car and as soon as I did the wind hit me making my hair flow wild. I have to admit it was very fucking embarrassing it got caught on my piercings and what not.

He followed after me as I grabbed my bag from the back of the car and sit on the side of the building.

A/N
sorry this is boring Yall I had to cut the chapter off here bc it was getting abit long but this scene will carry on in the next one so see y'all soon