Scars of the past|2min

I warned myself

Ermmm
Hello?
Idk why i wanted to write and continue this story again i just felt in the mood of writing it cuz i'm depressed asf and this story is too so hey.. why not?
Enjoy this chapter guys, also i worked on simple stuff and added things tell me your opinion about the addition of the song to the parts.

This song is by Charlie puth and it fits so well although i was gonna put the titles based on skz songs but this is hella good song so yeah :)
And also it fits the part so i also made some things in here you'll see in the chapter ;)

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Falling? Maybe.

Just another day, the sun arose and leeknow was nowhere near seungmin on the bed, the younger waking up to an empty spot next to him..
He felt useless, was he just a scumbag like his ex after all? Using leeknow like that and just screwing around not having any purpose in life? It bothers him how leeknow is just going with it, just doing whatever he wants him to, why would leeknow go this far for him? Would he even do that to any of his friends?

Seungmin's overthinking grew, he knew he had to move on, he knew he had to live his life just like normally, it's been over a week already.. He should get his shit together!

Seungmin tried to gather the pieces together, but it was still hard to decide what's gonna happen next.. He got up slumping his heavy legs on the floor, messy hair and unbrushed teeth, making his way towards the kitchen to maybe eat something or just, if he's being honest with himself, stare at the food in the fridge and close it up again.

What surprised him was that minho was sitting on the kitchen table with his coffe cup in hand as he waited, didn't he have work today?

Leeknow's head snapping up towards the figure entering and flashing a soft smile as usual.. "morning seungmo" he greeted the boy and slid a plate towards the seat next to him mentioning for the boy to sit down, which he did sitting next to Leeknow confused as to what was happening, scared even, but leeknow's smile relaxed him a bit "morning hyung" he said with a cracked smile as he took a seat and looked at the plate of pancakes with berries and honey ontop, it looked delicious.

Minho smiled looking at the younger admiringly as he sipped from his coffee again "eat up" he said, his bunny teeth showing under his smile making seungmin smile himself.. Leeknow was the only one who made him smile, laugh, and forget..

And he had the appetite to eat again, for the first time in weeks he doesn't have to force himself. He so badly wanted to hold leeknow's hand and thank him for everything, but he didn't want to make this moment emotional, as a small gesture of thank you, the puppy boy leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheek after blushing deeply and munching his pancakes.

The latter was taken by surprise, but nevertheless he smiled widely to himself shaking his head at the younger's cuteness.. 'i warned myself' he thought.. seungmin was doing unhealthy things to him.. he was messing with his mental health, messing with his heart.

Did he fall in love? With his bestfriend that's struggling with his life? Was he even gay after all? Or Should he say bi..? The boy was so confused but that was why.. he wanted to talk to seungmin.

The younger happily eating his pancakes, snapped his head towards minho when he called his name, his lips covered with honey as he put the fork down and paid full attention when he sensed the older's seriousness.

No good for my health, you mess with my heart.

It took all of him to not stare at those lips

.. FOCUS..

"I'm worried about.. all this, what's next?" He said, and felt this heavy weight on his shoulders heavier, afraid to add up to seungmin's problems. "I mean i'm okay with everything, but are you okay?" He asked again, hearing silence, no response from the younger male who now played with his fork and cut the pancakes to try and think.. he pursed his lips sighing heavily.

"I mean minnie, I really want to help you move on, you have to continue living your normal life before whatever that guy's name was, stepped in and ruined it.. and i want to help you, not screw you up even more.." he had said it, he finally said what's been on his mind for these past 2 weeks..

Seungmin's eyes closed, his brows furrowing as he sighed again, he knew that leeknow was right, totally, but it was too much.. he was just like a lost puppy. He put the fork and knife down as he stared at the plate on the table not daring to look up at leeknow. "I know you're lost, and i wanna help" he said again.. 'was this man an angel on earth or something? Was he able to hear people's thoughts?' Is what seungmin was thinking in the moment. Finally he had the courage to look up at leeknow's face, his black deep eyes which he always gets lost into, the light shining through them made him believe he has to do it, if not for himself, then for this one person that had helped him through it all and never left his side for even a minute.

"Please do, i want to move on, and i want to live a simple life again" leeknow's heart beat fast, he did not know why he was nervous but all he knew was that seungmin was unhealthy to him, he was dangerous. The way his smile creaked on his face, the way his eyes sparkled, and all of it although now, anyone can see how disheveled seungmin looked, with his messy hair, unbrushed teeth, and unwashed face.. But it all made him look so cute in the dancer's eyes.

He shouldn't, he knew he shouldn't be like this, that seungmin was just a friend of his and he knew seungmin never thought of him this way but he couldn't help but feel something strange inside him twirl.. He has to keep this in and never make it clear to his bestfriend.

He is a piece of shit, for feeling that way because of sleeping and helping his friend out like that.. he should've never felt that way. And he knows, but living with seungmin made him fall too hard, maybe it wasn't true, is what he told himself, maybe it was only his imagination and he was just desperate for love.. he hasn't been in a relationship for too long. Yeah maybe that is really the reason. (Just keep telling yourself that honey)

He shouldn't play with fire, he knows how this all would end, he has to back away.. he has to run away, he has to leave, he has to..

He can tell that, he will do it one more time...

Even if all of this was happening again from the beginning, repeating from the start, he knows he will just do the same thing he did over and over.

You're the reason why I, warned myself that i shouldn't play with fire.

To be continued~