Things I wanted to Say (but didn't)

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•Narrator•

As Ariana stood face to face with Margo's front door, chills ran through out her body. It was about 3 months since the Christmas party and she's done nothing but avoid Margo at all costs. As she lifted her hand to knock on the door the cold March air glazed her knuckles. She took a deep breath before knocking, twice as hard as she could. Within 2 minutes the door swung open. As 'Are we Still Friends' by Tyler the Creator filled her ears she was met with an intoxicated Margo.
"Ari." Margo whispered under her breath. Even from 2 feet away Ariana could smell the alcohol that laid on Margo. Ariana dressed in baggy ripped high waisted jeans, and a black crop top, she seemed perfect fine to Margo. On the other hand Ariana couldn't be more worried as she looked the girl in front of her up and down. She was in a low waisted 2000s Victoria's Secret sweatsuit, a black sports bra peaked out from her half way zip sweater. She was wearing no makeup other than the left over smudged black eyeliner and her straight hair laid messy on her head. You could see her eye bags from a mile away and Ariana knew Margo wasn't in the right mind.
"Hi," Ariana finally answered.
"Can we talk?" She added as Margo invited her in.
"It's better if we just talk here, I won't stay for long." Ariana insisted. Margo who already knew what was coming, nodded.
"Are we still Friends." Played in the background as Ariana took a deep breath.
"It's been a while." She said doing her little nose twitch thing she does when she's nervous, Margo could spot it from a mile away every time.
"Mhm." Margo mumbled trying her hardest not to make eye contact but she couldn't help but not take her eyes off the beautiful girl in front of her.
"Soo," Margo said trying to get this conversation over with.
"So I took some time to think," Ariana begins before getting cut off by Margo.
"Are we still friends." Shouts in the background as if it wants to be heard.
"Listen Ariana, we both know what you're going to say. I don't need some sob story do you want to say it or should I?" Margo Laughed shaking her hand.
"Are we still friends." Plays even louder than before.
"I don't want to surround myself with a bad influence, I hate to break it to you, but you were right. This is what you have lined up for you and I don't want that. I could want you but not want all of this! I don't want the drugs, money, the parties. I don't want the overload that comes with you." Ariana says as her voice shakes.
"The overload?" Margo questions loudly as she laughs shaking her head.
"The overload." She says again under her breath to where Ariana can barely hear it.
"I thought you wanted this?" She laughs yelling at Ariana.
"I just wanted YOU." Ariana yells back.
"You can't want me and not everything else I come with. YOU CAN'T JUST CHOOSE ONE PART OF ME." Margo Yells. Ariana now quite doesn't know what to say as she's met with Margo's watery eyes.
"I don't want to end this season on a back episode." Plays in the background as their eyes don't leave each other.
"You don't get it." Ariana tries to make sense of the problem.
"No Ariana. You don't get it." Margo quickly shuts down her rant.
"We are Done." Margo says as her eyes meet Ariana. Ariana trying to find anything in Margo's eyes to tell her it's going to be 'okay' is met with nothing but black daggers as it becomes to painful to look into her eyes.
"What?" She whispers looking down.
"We are done, broken up. I can't with you." Margo says.
"Oh so now you throw it on me." Ariana laughs.
"I have every right to YOU GHOST ME for MONTHS. Without anything." Margo laughs shaking her head as tears run done her face.
"Goodbye Ariana." She says before slamming the door in Ariana's face.
"Goodbye." Ariana whispers under her breath as she's met with a door in her face.

That night Ariana went home and got the drunkest she has ever gotten, it was also the first of many times after that. That same night was also the first sober night of many for Margo.