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Ch.10-When the Party's Over

Lev walked into the house,tired from the day he had just lived. He sat down,burying his tear stained face into a nearby throw pillow to cry quietly. Spencer sat down beside him quietly,reaching an arm around Lev who in return flinched.

"Hey love I'm sorry you know I didn't mean to scream at you.I was just worried you would leave me for that other guy I mean,he must be so much bett-"

Lev was tired. He had gone through this for the umpteenth time, he just couldn't do it again.He was sick of it,tired.

"I'm done, Spencer."

"...What?What did you just say to me? You're not done anything, I never said you cou-"

Lev cut him off mid sentence.

"No Spencer ,I'm done. I am tired, so SO tired.I mentally cannot keep doing this. I'm not allowed talk to anyone except for my cousin and my single friend from class, and even then I can barely talk to him"

Spencer replied.

"That's because you're going to lea-"

"No Spencer, God, I never wanted to leave! You have had me wrapped around your stupid ego for SO LONG.Whenever I had anything to do you just had to come with me, I can't even go to practice without you being there!! But the moment that I want to actually be around you you're off doing something that 'simply can't wait' WHICH I KNOW by the way is your cover up for fooling around with that drummer from your band!!"

Spencer's grip on Lev tightened.

" Lev I-"

"NO! YOU THOUGHT I WOULDN'T FIND OUT!? I have known about this for MONTHS.You KNEW just how upset I was that you were so close with him, and now you go behind my back and START MAKING OUT WITH HIM AFTER YOUR CONCERT LAST YEAR!?This isn't love,Spencer. You don't love me, you control me.I am nothing more than a pawn to you."

"I just wanted to make you happy Lev, I'm sor-"

Spencer was practically clinging to Lev by now. Lev reacted by pulling away from him.

"Get out of my house."

Spencer froze.

"What did you just say to me, you little sh**?"

Lev put the pillow he was holding aside and met Spencer's confused dark eyes with his own tourmaline eyes, glossy with the tears now pouring down his tawny cheeks, rosy from the bitter tears. His eyes no longer held affection for the boy he loved,now all they felt was resentment for the waterworks the other caused.

"I said GET OUT OF MY HOUSE SPENCER!NOW!"

Spencer was in shock. His brows furrowed as he turned to Lev and slapped him,hard.

"You don't get to yell at me. You are NOTHING in this world without me."
Lev was leaned over, holding his face. He was so sad he laughed. He laughed, because he couldn't bring himself to cry any longer.

"Bold words for someone no one knew of until I told them about you.Not even one of them actually know you, the cocky, tyrannical,abusive real you. I hope everyone can see what a prick you really are.get out."

Spencer realized there was no winning this for him.Lev refused to be manipulated any longer.

So he picked up his things and left.Lev sat there,petting his cat as he cried. What he had failed to realize before he saw her was that his older sister was home. She sat down next to him, holding him in her arms.

"I'm sorry, please don't tell our parents."

Lev spoke quietly, barely a whisper.

"Lev,you can't stick with that type of person,you give too much and it never pays off for you."

Lev knew that. Lev thought that he was a terrible person for what he did to Kenji.He didn't deserve good people.He accepted the people he thought he deserved into his life.

Meanwhile Kenji was also going through a breakup with his boyfriend Kazuyo, his was a lot calmer.

"I'm sorry Kazuyo,you're perfect. It isn't you at all."

Kenji attempted to explain himself with a sombre tone.

"I understand Kenji,I get it."

Kazuyo had tears in his eyes. He felt Kenji and him were a great pair.

"Kazuyo You are so great but it's just,I'm sorry, you are not him, and I can't see anyone else who could be him either. I have tried to move on for so so long Kazuyo, I'm so sorry to end it like this.

Kenji was staring at the same spot on the floor,his voice still monotone.Kazuyo sniffled quietly.

"No, I understand Kenji.He is your one and only. Your soulmate.You two are connected by the strings of fate, no matter how far apart you will always wind up back together.Sometimes, loving someone means letting them go so they can be truly happy.I love you,Kenji.Please, for me, get the love you've always deserved.I know he will treat you well,.

And just like that, Kazuyo was gone.Kenji sat at his table,usure of himself.So he did what he knew to do.He wrote.Countless pages of writing,every single one to lev.He poured all his feelings into every single one.Some were full of anger, sad or even confused over everything between him and Lev.They both wanted each other more than anything,yet neither believed that they deserved the other, and accepted less.