My turning page.

Ch.7-Once more to See You

Lev POV, 30th Oct.

I haven't seen Kenji in a long time, a really really long time.I was so accustomed to seeing him every single day in class or at home or at the park.It felt so strange not seeing him for so long.

Every single time I saw a boy in a corridor with a tuft of raven hair on his head I would analyze him full of hope,just for it to be crushed as they'd turn around to face me. That wasn't who I was looking for, it wasn't Kenji.

Clementine pulled me into our room during the evening, holding a chocolate muffin with a singular thin little candle stuck into it,it's flame emitting a gentle glow as the heat and light it produced danced a passionate waltz with each other.

"Happy birthday Levochka, make your wish"

She gave me a soft smile as I chuckled,closing my eyes for a second before I blew out the candle.

"What did you wish for?"

"You know I can't tell you Clemmy, that'll mean it won't happen-"

She looked at my understandingly.She already knew what I wished for,what I would wish for every single time.I wished to have Kenji by my side again.

This was my third or fourth year celebrating my birthday without Kenji. It never really got easier.Sure I had my successes and a large group of friends to be around and goof off with every second of the day,but they weren't right.Kenji wasnt there. I'd trade them for a few moments more with Kenji in a heartbeat.

That's not to say I didn't love them, I loved them all to bits.But for some reason, I couldn't love any of them quite as much as I loved him. I just didn't feel complete, like my soul was missing this key part that it needed to fully become happy. I don't think I'll ever see him again, and it breaks my heart. I'm finally going home this summer, I guess I'll just have to try my best to find someone, something to fill the void within me.

June 1st.

I walked up to my gate with tearful glassy eyes. Clementine was beside me, it was going to be really strange without her constantly around me but at least she can visit. I hugged her tightly, letting out a small sigh which almost made me cry. She had to walk on a little to her gate, She was flying home to her mother in Bordeaux.

"I'm gonna miss you so fucking much Clems"

"I'll miss you too Levochka, I'm happy you get to go home. Maybe you'll find your favourite person again? You can call me whenever okay? I need to go now, I LOVE YOU!!!"

That last part was yelled as she walked away from me,waving frantically.Her words echoed in my head the entire way.

What if I do find Kenji again? What would I even tell him about what happened? He probably hated me by now, no, he definitely did.

I breathed a sigh of relief when I arrived home,hugging my mother as I choked back a few silent tears of joy. It felt so nice to be back home with my family.