The Merman From Ashore-A Bakudeku Love Story(Ao3 Version, New and Improved)

Chapter 12

Ever since last night, I couldn't stop thinking about that kiss. I kissed Kacchan! Kacchan of all humans! Not that I'm complaining, it wasn't half bad. It was nice, exhilarating, and... and... I just don't know how else to describe it. He was gentle with the kiss too, I'd always thought that he would be a rough kisser.

For granted, I've never told Kiri about the kiss, technically kisses with Kacchan since we've only kissed two times. And if I told him, I wouldn't hear the end of it and he would try to convince me to end whatever Kacchan and I were feeling.

That's the thing, I don't know what I'm supposed to be feeling like. Am I supposed to feel love, or was what I was feeling for Kacchan just lust? I just need to figure out if I don't feel the same way or if he doesn't feel the same way about me. Although, now that I think about it, I feel like I'm experimenting with Kacchan and his feelings.

Hell, I don't even know if he would feel the same way or if he was only kissing me just to live in the moment. I almost felt bad when I told him about why I don't show humans my tail. Yes, I know it's bad to lie, but at the same time, it wasn't a lie. I have bits and pieces of it, but that man who violated me wasn't the first human I saw.

I think it was when I was fifteen or was it sixteen? I don't even remember either, but the first human I met was on that very same island, but that was before I met that man who touched me uncomfortably. I have a hard time remembering because, well, because of Aizawa.

Since the chief has somewhat of abilities and spells. Correction, he can only do a few or several spells. And I'm guessing he wiped my memory of when I saw that human. Funny how he erased memories of my interaction with the human, but yet I remembered that he used a spell on me. Well, to be fair, Kendo and Monoma told me what happened.

But over time, I've gotten bits and pieces of it from my head and even if I don't remember their face, I hung out with them every day, having the best time of my life with them. I remember that they went on a trip with their friends and stayed on an island for a week. Since the island isn't inhabited by anyone, this was their idea of living in the woods. I also do know that I had feelings for that human, but be as it may it didn't work out.

I hope that whoever they are, wherever they are, I hope they're living their best life out on their own. Maybe that's why I'm so drawn to the surface, not because of that human I remembered, but how I believed humans were fun. I've been told that humans are the most deceiving beings on the surface, but I haven't met anyone like that. Maybe that's a good thing anyway. I mean, generally, I thought Kacchan was going to be like that towards me, but I was wrong, so very wrong.

He's fine with me. He's not disgusted or disturbed by me. Kacchan only saw my face and my finned ears, but he didn't give me a look of disgust at all. Probably because he hasn't seen a merperson before in his life. That's probably it.

I'm probably reading too much into this situation. Let's just put it aside and go on about the day, so that I can get back to this issue when I don't have a full day planned. I looked around the condo that I was in. And I'm all by myself. Kacchan and Kiri are at work, I guess, so that leaves me with… I stared at the dog that was lying down on the couch.

I have not gotten over the fact that he tried to bite me, I almost thought that I was going to lose a finger because of him. Maybe I can try to make peace with him today. I have nothing better to do than rewatch a movie, but I need to take a break from it. I still like it though.

Besides, I've seen humans and animals that are best friends with each other, so how hard can it be to befriend him?

Walking over to the couch, I bent down to his level on the floor and looked over at Kota, just lying down on the couch. "Hi, Kota. How are you?"