𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐁𝐨𝐲 - 𝐁𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐊𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐳

Goddess

I wait, I'm terrified. What if something goes wrong? Will we be okay? Will it live? It will, we will be okay and nothing will go wrong. I can't let the negative thoughts overtake my positive ones, or I'll go mad. The door swings open, the first thing that catches my eye is the test. Even from here I could feel the tension. She swallows, tossing it at me.

I look down at it. Two lines. Two. Is it true? Is it happening? "When do we announce it?" She mumbles, eyes dark from the shadow. The moonlight shining on her face. I glance at the alarm clock, it tells me it's only 10. "Now."

****

Lena stumbles over her own feet, making me laugh. I hold her shoulders as we walk down the steps, the rest of the house is on the couch. Hailey is passed out over Tom's lap, Tom is watching TV. Georg is reading a book and Gustav is reading a magazine. Lena swallows, approaching the couch arm where Georg sits. Making him look up.

"Hey guys, everything okay?" He asks, looking at us closely. The rest of them look at us, I move her arm out in the open. Showing the test. Tom's jaw drops, his eyes go wide. "Is that what I think that is, you two?" He whispers, pointing.

I giggle, nodding. Kissing Lena's head. Gustav shakes his head with a smile, staying quiet. "Oh god, where will we put the other one?" Tom asks us, worry taking over his face. Lena and I shrug, we hadn't gotten this far. But we will. Our initial plan was with us until the child was of age to sleep on their own and not disturb Hailey.

But by then, she'll be around 8. Maybe even 9 or 10. Tom shakes his head, a proud smile on his face nonetheless. I smile down at Lena as she looks up nervously at me, blinking at me helplessly. "I told you it was going to be okay, Lena. We'll be okay, trust me." I whisper, making the boys look back.

"Bill's right, Lena. It was only one time, but you're strong." Gustav says, giving her a sweet smile. She returns it, nodding. "Thank you, Gustav. It means a lot." I smile at his words to Lena. He nods back, picking his magazine up. "Of course, we'll all be here for you. Even little sleeping beauty over there."

Gustav chuckles, pointing with his magazine to Hailey who's sacked out still, making Lena and I laugh especially. Lena and I make it back upstairs to our room, she takes a photograph of the test before she trashes it, making me laugh. She did this with Hailey's too, she must have a way to remember everything I suppose.

She does polaroids, putting them in this book. She's done it for years. I watch her stuff the new one in an empty slot, and I grow curious. Having forgotten some things that were in the book. "My love?" I call out, my voice soft spoken.

Lena looks up, humming at me. I point to the book with a small smile. "Can we look through it together, it's been years." I laugh, Lena breaks into a huge childish smile. Agreeing almost instantly, she plops down with the photo book in her lap. Flipping to the first page, I notice a picture of her and I at the park.

My heart brightens to see us so young and dumb, so inlove with each other. She's still just as beautiful as the day I met her, if not even more. She smiles, pointing at a picture of us in front of a town's christmas tree. Both of us are smiling like idiots, red noses and rosey cheeks. She smiles wide, all her pearly whites show and the light reflects on her face.

"Look! That was our first ever christmas when we went into downtown. Do you remember that night? We got hot cocoa and sat by their heaters as we just talked." She rants, smiling down at the photo. I giggle, leaning on her shoulder. Looking down at it with her, I remember that night clearly. She had clung to me all night because it was so cold, yet she had been the one who insisted we had went to downtown to see their Christmas tree.