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"ssssteellaaaaaa" lila wined as she tugged on my foot.
"no leave me alone i wanna sleep." i answered back annoyed. i knew she was rolling her eyes without even opening my own. "the flight is like 2 hours you can sleep when we get there. now talk to me before i die of boredom. do you want me to die is that it? you hate me? you wish i was never born?"
i open my eyes to stare at her with the dirtiest look possible. "gosh be anymore dramatic will ya?" i grab the small pillow from behind that i was leaning on and chucked it across to hit lila right in the face.
before lila could retaliate, her phone starts ringing beside her. i give her a cheeky grin in victory as she lets go of the pillow that she was close to throwing back at me, as she picks up her phone and answers it.
"hey mummy!" lila speaks as a smile quickly appears on her face and i smile too. i adored lila's mum. first of all, she was kate mf moss, who doesn't? but kate was such a sweet mother who always treated me like her own daughter.
after a few seconds, lila puts her phone on speaker for me to hear just the end of kate's sentence- "where are u headed off to?"
"stel and i are going to monaco remember? we told you all about weeks ago." there was a small pause on the other end. "oohhhh! yes i remember! i thought it was only stella moving? i didnt know you were moving either sweetheart." lila and i chuckle as we shake our head at her mum.
"i'm not going anywhere mum. i'm just staying with stella for a few days while i help her settle in, and then i'm coming straight back." lila explained. "that's lovely then. ok well make sure you enjoy monaco while you're there, and tell stella i wish her the absolute best! can't wait to hear all about it, buh bye sweetheart."
"she's so cute" i say as we say bye to kate before she hangs up.
.......
"stels. stellaaaa" i groan as i open my eyes and look around. "we're landing babe." lila says as she gets off of me to im guessing the bathroom to touch up.
i rub my eyes to try and wake myself up more and grab my phone. lily had sent me a message.
... lily-rose petals🌹🤍
hey queen call me when you guys get to your new place I CANT WAIT TO SEE IT!! ps i'm expecting my own room nice and decorated when i come there.. i'm so excited to see u both MISS YA😘😘😘😘😘
... i smile as i read her message. lily, lila and i were all extremely close. they were everything to me and they've stuck with me through everything. lily was meant to come with us too but she was currently shooting a new show called 'the idol' or something in la so she'd be joining us in monaco later.
i took a deep breath before stepping out of the private jet. i was just praying and praying there would be no paparazzi waiting. it was the last thing i needed right now.
thankfully, there was a bunch of security waiting for us and no cameras to be seen. we were escorted out of the airport and into a car that would take us to my new place.
yep. my new place. new house.
gosh that feels weird to say.
my entire life i had only ever lived in london. i never even lived anywhere else in england. but i was fine with it, i loved london. even after lily moved to la and begged me to live with her, i never wanted to leave london.
but now i do. i needed to.
after the breaking in incident, i hadn't slept properly since. i felt so many emotions, but most of all i felt petrified. i couldn't even sleep in my own house after that, i had to move back in with my mum.
even if i wasn't in the house when it happened, my address was already leaked. even after hiring 10x more security, i never felt safe again.
this was the hardest decision i've ever had to make, but i knew it was the right thing to do. i needed to move, but i knew moving to a different house wouldn't be enough for me. and so i was looking into other countries.
australia was a close option, but it was too far away from my friends and family. the time difference was also a big no.
lily begged for me to move in with her in la, but i'm pretty sure america hated me as much as england did. plus her boyfriend timothee chalamet just moved in with her too, and i didn't want to become a third wheel.
but that's when lily's dad, johnny told me about monaco. he said a bunch of celebrities already lived there and other celebrities loved to vacation there. it was perfect for me he said. i would be able to disappear for a while and focus on myself without the attention on me.
it's exactly what i needed.
i haven't been the same since jude and i broke up, everyone knew that. i hadn't even touched my piano or guitar since, and i only ever went on social media to check my friends posts. jude's tried multiple times to apologise after he found out about the incident, but i couldn't bring myself to reply. those were his fans.
the guy who broke in might not be, but the teenagers who found and leaked my address were big bellingham fans.
i knew it wasn't his fault that his fans were like that, but it all happened because of him.
i left my home because of him.
and now im forced to restart.
it didn't seem like an entirely bad plan, especially with my bestfriend with me.
but who knows? maybe i'll like it here in monaco?
.. i'm scared to write this book lol anyways give me thoughts, feelings, and recs? i'll CONSIDER them 😉 and vote!!
