Delicate

chapter seven

INTO YOU - ARIANA GRANDE

I walk down the hallway and get to Rafe's door. I nervously knock 3 times on the door and I inhale a small gasp as it opens.

Rafe leans against the doorframe almost as if he was waiting for me. His 6'2 frame feels as intimidating as ever, but I think what made me gasp was his outfit. Rafe is shirtless and his skin looks like it's physically glowing. 

Maybe he just worked out? No , scratch that I would've heard the dumbells right? I mean my headphones aren't that noise cancelling, I got them from 5 below. I usually had to pick between food or fun things so lots of things I have are cheap. Did he shower? No stupid, his hair's dry. Do guys skip hair day? JB never does, but I practically have to force him to shower half the time so that's probably not reliable, right? 

My eyes move down his chest and his toned abs, and see that he's wearing gray sweatpants. "Of course he knows the gray sweatpant theory" I think to myself as I mentally roll my eyes. Gosh he looked sexy though if only I could see those sweatpants up against the wall ... "SHUT UP ELLLAA" I think to myself and snap out of my trance. 

"Okay Rafe I'm here, what do you want?" I say super snarkily to throw off my internal thoughts. "Cmon Routledge we don't really have to play this game do we?" he asks. "What game?" I play dumb. "The game where we both pretend we don't wanna rail each other right now". "One time thing Rafe, remember?" "Oh okay seriously? You don't wanna sleep with me right now?" "Um no" I say almost disgusted. "Well judging by your outfit and the 12 minutes after I opened the door you spent staring at my body, specifically my pants before speaking to me I'd like to disagree" he says with a sneaky grin almost as if he's known he's won.

 I mean I certainly zoned out and daydreamed a bit, but it wasn't 12 minutes right? He's definitely just messing with me as always. "Oh shut up Rafe. Don't act like you don't know what gray sweatpants do to all girls. It means absolutely nothing that it's you wearing them they could be on literally a stranger and I would find them attractive". "You're still admitting you think I'm attractive yeah?" "No you're not. You are one of the most unattracti-

I'm cut off by Rafe suddenly grabbing my throat and pushing me up against his door kissing me passionately. I can' control myself from letting out a moan and wrapping my legs around his torso. That seems to entice Rafe to get even more passionate, and he begins roughly rubbing and squeezing my boobs, still with one hand wrapped around my throat. I can feel my underwear getting so soaked to where I wanna scream and just kiss him forever. Almost as if he senses this he abruptly stops and pushes me off of him. I fall to the floor. 

I freeze on the ground with my mouth open in shock. "Am I still unattractive Princess?" he says with a lustful glint in his eyes. I'm left with two decisions. 1) give in and possibly have the best sex of my life (again) causing me to further betray my best friend, or 2) don't let Rafe win and go back to my room and finally face John B and JJ. The thought of him makes me wanna puke, which isn't something I'm used to feeling. In my moment of weakness I decide to give in which I may or may not regret later.

"Never been uglier to me Cameron. You know I really think you need to show me how attractive you can be" I wink. "Oh that's not enough for you? I forgot how greedy you pogues are" he says the word pogues sounding almost like poison. Poison that for some reason I wanted to drink every last drop of. 

Rafe extends his hand to help me up, but as soon as I accept it he ranks my body, picks it up, and roughly throws it onto his bed. He pins me down, straddling on top of me. "You want me to show you how attractive I am yeah?" he whispers into my neck his hot breath sending shivers down my spine, the way he said attractive making me weak in the knees. "Well you're gonna have to earn it pogue. Be a good girl and get the attractiveness you crave, be a bad girl, and well lets just say you'll regret it..." Why is being threatened by Rafe Cameron making me more turned on then I've ever been in my entire life ever? I nod my head in agreement to what Rafe just said, and he slaps me across the face. "You're already starting off a bad girl, Routledge I had more faith in you. You're gonna have to be a good girl and use your words for me yeah?" "Yeah" I agree. He begins to grind on top of me while he kisses all over my face and neck. He's clearly just gonna tease me and I know that but I don't seem to care. 

I think I'll do absolutely anything to keep his lips on my body. 

Rafe starts roughly undoing the buttons of my cardigan and one pops off causing the whole sweater to begin unraveling. I push him off me. "Stop! Rafe please stop!" I beg. He seems to sense the desperation because he lets go of me. "What's wrong Princess?" he asks with genuity in his voice. I stare at the torn fabric and the snapped button and start sobbing, rocking backing forth having trouble breathing. 

"Ella! What's wrong? Please let me fix it!" he's the one who's pleading now, causing my brain to freeze. He just called me Ella. Rafe Cameron just called me Ella. That's only happened like 8 times in the ten years I've known him. 

His arms tighten around me and he tries to help me stop rocking. I bury my head into his chest and am able to find regular breaths against his steady heartbeat. "Ella baby, please tell me what's wrong" he whispers softly in my ear as he runs his fingers through my hair. How does he know that's what comforts me most? "I'm sorry Rafe it's stupid" I stutter. "Nothing that upsets you is stupid. Whatever it is I'll kill it" he says in a cold tone. Back to the Rafe I know I guess. "It's just um well my cardigan broke and now its all unraveled". "Okay well? I can buy you something better that looked like a grandma sweater anyway". "No Rafe you can't!" I begin to cry again. "Great now my underwear and face are soaked" I think. 

 "That's a limited edition Taylor Swift folklore cardigan that she doesn't make anymore and sold out almost instantly. I saved up for over 3 months  to buy it from a reseller and when my dad found out I had been hiding money from him right as he was on the 'breakthrough' of the treasure I got my worst and last beating". 

"Worst and last?" he asks sounding concerned. "Um well um okay ... we were in the grocery store parking lot after buying groceries aka almost only beer and I got the notification saying the package arrived and well I should've known better, but I just get so excited about Taylor and so I told him about it and then he lost control saying the money I spent was almost the exact amount he needed for his treasure hunt shit and he started hitting me super bad in the car and some tourist walking by saw and reported it to the police. Susan, sorry Sheriff Peterkin has looked out for me my whole life and tried to come up with so many arrangements to keep my dad out of jail and me and JB out of foster care so um right after that is when I moved here". 

"Oh baby I'm so sorry" he coos, continuing to play with my hair which to be honest is the only thing keeping me sane right now. "If your dad wasn't dead at sea I would kill him" he says tensing up. "It's fine Rafe you don't have to do that. Let's just pretend this didn't happen and go back to what we were doing" I say starting to smile at the end up my sentence. "You seriously want me to fuck you right now?" he asks with disbelief in his voice. "Look as much as I wanna do that I think you should chill". 

Oh how I wish I would've answered him. Instead I say nothing although my brain is screaming "Rafe you have no idea how much more that made me wanna fuck you, how much that turned me on!" 

Rafe undos the covers of his bed, picks me up and places me inside them. He gets in with me and puts his arm around me holding me close. his fingers run up and down my arm, giving me goosebumps. he grabs my phone and asks me for my passcode. "10-22-03", I reply almost instantly. "JJ's birthday. How would he feel about this El? You know you're more worried about his opinion than Sarah's". "Why do you need my passcode Rafe?" "To do this" he flips the phone around to show me he's added my spotify account to their premium, and he's queued up the whole folklore album to play. I'm so speechless and surprised I just reach up to kiss him squeezing him even tighter around me. This might be the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me. Except this is Rafe.  As in Rafe Cameron, Sarah's brother, huge asshole, rich dickhead who all my friends hate, Rafe. Wants me for just sex Rafe. Or does he? All I know is I've never been more into him, (maybe into anyone?) the way I am after tonight.

*AN

okay y'all i love this chapter sm it might be one of my faves

lmk how you guys are liking the book so far!!