Lost Feelings

Lucas's POV:

I hate how much I'm hurting Evelyn; I hate the fact that we cannot be together even if I tried to fix things. I hate that I messed up, Parker took my sister from me, so I had no choice but go along with his twisted plan. I hate myself for everything he has done to her, he promised that no one would get hurt and now Landon is dead, and she is running from me. 

After Landon's funeral Evelyn and I had gone home to watch movies. We were about halfway through the movie when Parker texted me.

 "Hey, I'm here come outside really quick." He said with a knock on the door.

 "who's that?" Evelyn asked when she heard the knock. I had to lie and say I didn't know when I knew the entire time what was about to happen. Parker kicks the door down and I slip out making it seem like I was kidnapped. The following events I had no idea about and I want to scream because of it. 

Parker and Evelyn talk for a few until I take a pan to the back of her head knocking her out cold. "What a stupid girl" Parker blurts out as she falls to the ground, 

"hey man. Shut the fuck up." I say while picking her up and going to the car. on our way to the car, she started moving around on my shoulder and almost falls.

 "Woah" I stay trying to fix her placement. We get to the car, and I buckle her into her seat, and we take off to the warehouse. Once we get to the warehouse, I take her out and tie her with rope onto a metal table that we had lying around. 

About two hours later she finally wakes up and starts fighting.

 "Good morning sleepyhead" Parker says with a smirk on his face. I stay seated trying to fight the guilt taking over my features. I snap out of my thoughts when I hear Evelyn moaning. 

"Fuck you Parker" she says while fighting the eye roll, she looks over to me and our eyes lock together. 

"Fuck it" I mumble under my breath before I get up and hit Parker in the head knocking him out cold. Earning a gasp in response from Evelyn, 

"I'm so sorry Eve" I say trying to explain myself. As soon as she is untied, she shoves me out of the way and takes off running.

 I try to chase after her to explain but she's running too fast, and I lose her in the busy New York City streets. 

"FUCK!" I say while punching a nearby wall. I fucked up and lost the only person I truly loved. She'll never forgive me, and I'm stuck with that I don't deserve her, hell I never did. She has lost everything because of me and there's nothing that I can do about it. She lost Landon because I shot him, she lost her parents because of Landon's death... And now I've lost her. I track my way to my house, and I find her laying on the couch fast asleep. There are pain meds on the side table and a glass of water. 

"Oh Evelyn... I'm so sorry my love." I whisper as I walk to my room. Everything in me is screaming to lay with her, But I fight it and go take a shower. 

While I'm in the shower I hear the door open, and Evelyn gets in with me. "Hi-" 

"Don't talk" she says while hugging me.

 "When we get out, I don't want your apology; I want an explanation." She says while looking at me. Once we get out and get dressed, I sit on the couch. She comes over and lays in my lap. The silence is deafening, and tension is high. It's killing me, and I'm stuck here not able to talk. 

"Hey," she calls out. "Why did you help him? Why did you shoot Landon?" She questions. 

"I had no choice. He had my sister and threatened to kill her." I say finally feeling the weight leave my chest. I have had to keep one eye open at night just to make sure that Parker doesn't try and take Evelyn. it's been terrible having to deal with having all of this stuff, and not being able to tell Evelyn anything. Maybe at the end of this we can finally have that happy ending, maybe everything will work out in the end, just maybe. Maybe we can finally be free and live our lives to do whatever we please.