Lost Feelings

Subchapter: Parker's Plan's

(Please don't hate me! I'm in my 'Flashback era' I'm like Taylor Swift! -Author)

Parkers' Pov:

My thoughts of her keep me awake at night, her face is everywhere yet nowhere at all. Her laughs, giggles, smile, touch, it all rushes back in a wave of emotion. It's something that I fear I may never get to experience ever again. "She hates me" I whisper to myself. "She'll never want me" The pain and tears taking over, quickly to turn to anger. Rage coursing through my veins, things fly around me. Screams taking the air, curses gliding through the wind. 

* 4 years ago, *

"Hi honey." I say while pulling Evelyn in for a kiss

"Hello dear" she says fighting my grasp. Why does she have to do this, why can't she just love me. Why does she always have to fight, why... Why can't she just be a good little bitch and listen? Why can't she just submit to my love. Why... I ask all of these questions, and do I get answers? No, I get shoved away by her. I get told to 'fuck off' or 'find someone else' When I have never wanted anyone else. I have wanted Evelyn Marie fucking Walker ever since I laid eyes on her at that bar. 

"We have guests coming over later. Your brother and one of his friends, I need you to be on your best behavior. Not to fight and argue with me, okay?" I say snapping out of my thoughts. Coming down from my reality.

"O-okay" she says flinching. I leave her and go to grab a beer. She has been fighting a lot more and the narcotics I have been putting in her drink haven't been as strong. She has gotten more sarcastic and annoying; I would never hurt her. So why the fuck is she fighting me?! 

*Present day*

"Is everything okay in there?" The hotel staff knocks

"Yes! Just my dog" I lie. I can't pay for this damage; my bank is already screaming at me to get a job. 

"Okay sir!" She says departing. 

I run my hands through my fading hair. The urge to scream again is nearing and I'm not sure how long I can fight it. I need to get Evelyn back, and if that means hurting her then so be it. I will do anything for this woman, and anything doesn't sound so bad. So, I jot down my sisters' card number and leave it on a nearby nightstand. Making my way out of the hotel and on to the street. 

I walk for what seems like hours before spotting a young girl walking out of a bar. I immediately recognize her and walk over. "Hey! Ruby how have you been?!" I ask running over. Ruby is Lucas's little sister, and she is nowhere near old enough to be in a bar at this time of night. 

"Oh um. Hello Parker" she says uncomfortably. "Good, and yourself?" She replies

I can tell that she is very drunk and possibly high. My my what has this poor girl gotten herself into. I offer to take her to her car and drive her home and she accepts. Foolish child, doesn't she know not to get in strange people's cars. I take her to a warehouse and give her something to drink. That same drink has roofies in it, in a matter of seconds she is all over me trying to unbutton my pants and strip me of my clothes. 

"Woah, let's take this slow" I say as she kisses my jaw. 

"No, I-I want yooouu noOow" She slurs. Unable to keep her head up, she sits down on a metal chair. I will use her to get to Evelyn and no one can stop me. My plan is fool proof. At least that's what I thought in the beginning. Now, I'm picking myself up off of the floor holding my head as sharp ringing runs through my veins. Making my head pound hard and fast, I try to recall what happened and it all comes rushing back. 

Evelyn was in my grasp and Lucas let her get away. He hit me over the head with something and everything thing went black in a matter of seconds. "Fuck!" I yell out throwing the table 6 feet across the room. She couldn't have gotten far. I can still smell her scent on my body, her lavender perfume that she always wears. The metal necklace that she never takes off, the soft shampoo she always uses. The late-night curling lotion she puts into her dark locks. The plaid dress she used to wear on our dates. The tanning lotion she'd wear with her thinnest bathing suit. 

The same bathing suit that would have every man on my radar. If one even happened to glance her way, I'd beat the shit out of him without thinking twice. I know every detail about this girl and nothing she can possibly do will make me less in love with her. I will burn the whole world down for her, leaving no other male alive to taint her perfectness. She will know that my love knows no bounds, that she will love no one other than me. She WILL know that she has, was, and will always be mine...

(Hey guys author here!!! I know this one is a bit short, but I wanted to update it since I have been so focused on the other book. Hope you guys liked this part and let me know if you have any other suggestions. Love youuuu)