Lost Feelings

Chapter Six: Plans

Evelyn's POV:

It's been a few days since I have talked to Lucas, he has been distant, and it worries me. Ever since he opened up about Parker he hasn't been sleeping as well and has been very cold. I love this man way to fucking much to just sit back and watch him be in pain; I would burn the damn world down to get his sister back. Family means the most and he has had his ripped from him by a crazy psycho. 

"Hey." I say while hugging him from behind. He has been so on edge that every move I make sends him into a panic. 

"Hey" he speaks with a smile. A smile... That's good, right? 

Butterflies are sent to my stomach when he turns around to look me in the eyes. His hands moving up to grab my face and pulling me into a kiss. 

 "mm" I moan. He grabs my butt to pull me closer and deepens the kiss. The outside world fades to a blur and my eyes close. Wrapping my hands around his shoulders I stand on my tippy toes and play with his hair. If only the world could stay like this forever, to always have this form of peace. To never worry about others and others never worry about us. To never deal with Parkers shit again...

That is a perfect world to me, that is what I long for. What I need in life, I need that "happily-ever-after" that you find in fairy tales. The tales that your mom would read to you with a warm smile and side dish of cookies right before bed.  

I'm taken out of my thoughts when Lucas pulls away to catch his breath. 

"Mm don't stop on my account." I say playfully, it's good to have some form of contact with him. I missed it, I missed us. 

"Evelyn what are we even doing? We aren't "friends", but we aren't dating either." He says with a sigh.  "It's hard enough to have you but not being able to call you mine. You said you liked me but yet you're tugging me around like a dog on its leash." He says all in one breath.

"I-I, I'm not sure..." I speak hesitantly. My vision is blurring, and heart rate is probably in the hundreds. 

"Evelyn, it has taken everything in me to not show you off to the world like a prized trophy I won at a football tournament. I want to have you and be here for you, I love you with all of my heart and it kills me to not have what I truly want with you. I'm tired of hiding whatever this is, so please I'm begging you. Please tell me what it is exactly that we are doing?" He states cupping my face and looking deep into my eyes. 

"I love you too. I love you so much that I would literally fight Parker bare handed just to get your family back. I don't want anyone other than you, but we need to keep this under wraps for just a bit longer because if Parker finds out he will use me to get to you. Or vise-versa" I speak while fighting back tears. 

"Okay..." He says letting the word draw out a bit. Looking into his eyes I see hurt and sadness, and it pains me to see him like this. So, I do what comes to mind and I press our lips together in a perfect little symphony. Like they are the waves meeting the beach in a clash, two lonely people finally letting the outside world disappear into oblivion. After we are done with the therapy session, we both eat and get ready to leave. He wants to check up on his parents since Parker now knows that he isn't on his side. 

...

We walk through the large iron doors at his parents' house and are immediately greeted with hugs and laughter. We of course texted beforehand, but it's good to see them in person. I was unsure on if they were okay or not so being here and knowing that is a good sign. I get pulled away by his mother for some quality "girl talk." 

"Thank you for staying with him after the hospital Evelyn. I cannot explain how much I appreciate you." She states. Oh... okay getting the hard stuff out of the way first. Good idea, I like the forwardness. 

"Yes, of course. It was really no issue; he's actually been able to do a lot of stuff." I say with a soft tone. Kind of shocked I didn't breakdown to be honest; it's been a hard week. 

Our little get away comes to an end after about an hour because the men walk in with drinks. Lucas is holding a scotch, red wine, and crackers. Tom (Lucas's dad) walks in with a whiskey on the rocks, and a shiner for Mary (Lucas's mom) We all escape to the nearby couch and converse on various topics. We mainly talk on topics such as life, work, the future. It's good to get away from the stress that has been weighing me down. The guilt for Landon, and my mother's disownment has had such a hold on me that this really helped with. 

We finally departed a little after the sun set. While walking home we watched as the sun's rays mixed together with the moons glow to create a perfect spread of vibrant colors across the sky. They faded and blurred in harmony 

"Look" I say pointing at the small clouds that pull the painting together. The small accents that they make to have the whole view be gorgeous is mesmerizing. "It's beautiful" I say taking the whole sight in. 

"Yea, it is." Lucas says looking up for a spilt second until looking over my shoulder at something that caught his eye.

"What?" I say looking over to find a deer spying from the tree line. It must have spotted us looking because soon after it ran off. "Aw It-" Was all I got out before I felt Lucas grabbing my face pulling me in for a kiss. 

"Mm" I melted into his touch, his fingers pulling my hair back giving him a better angle. He tasted like vanilla and sugar from the ice cream from earlier. I rested my hands in hair pulling him closer to me. He sadly pulls away and all the warmth that I once felt disappears with his touch. 

"Let's go home" He whispers like the kiss captured his voice, to only leave the smallest sigh. He places his hand in mine and we both make the journey back to his apartment complex. To fight the New York street traffic hand in hand isn't an easy feat, but we managed without breaking apart once.