These days, I'm fucking stressed emotionally. How do I deal with it? I throw myself into work, and sometimes I overdo it, the work thing.
Yesterday, I did a full day's shift, combining heavy physical work with serious mental work, and I'm now paying for it. My body aches, the muscles around my neck are on fire, and my mood is completely off. I can't regulate it, which is why I took to journaling this today.
Joe and Tee are eating. For some reason, I just feel unnecessarily angry. I bought bread and groundnuts and declined their offer to eat with them.
Tee keeps closing the door despite the heat. I want to scream to leave the fucking door open but everyone seems too sensitive these days, and I don't want to be the cause for someone else's depressive thoughts. Cos, explain to me why you keep shutting the door when the room is oven-hot.
The mf is even fanning herself with a piece of fucking paper. Like WHAT! THE! FUCK!
I've just maintained my emotional balance and told Joe to open the door. Tee opened it. Disaster avoided.
I'm fucking off today. I wanted to dress up and go to work. To drown myself in it again. But my muscles are burning and reminding me of the outcome.
I think I need a break from people.
I plan on telling Tina about spending some away time at hers. I don't know how she'll feel about it. My good guess is that she'll be fine.
I've not spoken with Kem in a very long while. I should just end things officially with her. I feel this isn't what she signed up for.
I broke my break on sex. I've had a couple of rounds with Praise. One thing I learned is that sex breaks are good because the comeback is fucking GREAT... It's mad AWESOME...
It was like feeding a starved man with delicacies...
From this experience, I propose that couples or partners should engage in breaks from time to time. It helps bind the intimacy closer. Well, it's just my experience and my opinion. It isn't universal.
I want to eat and binge on a movie series.
I've left off my learning on Python, AI, and ML.
I'm stressed and learning isn't fun at these periods. I should rest now.
I'm listening to Yanni. He's the best fit on my playlist for this moment. I just want to float in the verse, to be ether in this space.
