Adieu to all the missed opportunities.
Adieu to all unfulfilled dreams.
Adieu to the burnt-out passions and the withered drives.
Tonight, my heart is heavy. I mourn the many efforts I make that yield no result, the many applications sent out that receive rejection emails.
I mourn the unanswered messages to "hiring managers".
I mourn the near-hit, the scheduled interview that was interrupted by a fucked weather and a messed up network.
I mourn my tireless effort at work that burns me out at both ends without getting me the promotion I desire.
I mourn the places I feel I should be, the positions of authority I work for but haven't attained.
Today, I don't motivate myself at all. No. The sky is cloudy. Today, I mourn.
(Triggered by the news of a good friend going for an interview and getting a position in a great company with a robust offer, one I equally desired to get but couldn't attend the interview).
