If you ask me, if it's anything worth considering, I'd suggest we take a break instead...
We consider what this means for us both...
And come back when we're in the right head space to do so...
We've only just started this journey and the dynamics are totally different for me, as I guess it is for you. Commitment is new for me and I might be having challenges around what it really entails... E.g. not having to discuss with you first before discussing with another, thus switching your place as my primary lover and girlfriend...
I feel I broke something you valued, and I'm fucking sorry for this... Deeply sorry...
Like I said, we're learning new ways to be with ourselves... Trip-ups, errors, offenses, frictions, these are bound to occur... What if we try other ways of resolving these conflicts other than breaking camp...?
I don't have a manual for this thing called life. I don't know the best way to keep the things I love intact, and the people I love close by..., but how about we try to keep the goal of unity in sight, while we resolve our differences...
I know I've said more than I should say 🤦🏻♂️ but this is me. Conversations are how I've known to wade through storms...
I'm sorry I ignored your "no talking" wish. I really am. I respect people's choices and will on handling life's issues, but if it's anything at your core, fuck the world and whatever they'd say about us still having a partner or not, if it's anything at your core, I'd love to resolve this difference with you, and make this experience forge something stronger for us.
However, if you've really considered all sides of things, and you deeply feel like this is the best decision for you and us, you may do with this message whatever you deem appropriate.
Yes, we collided all too suddenly, but I have taken you deeply to heart and made what we had as real as possible within my powers.
If this is how our light fades, I'll choose to live in the sparks that we made together. Your peace of mind matters to me, far more than my being with you. If my presence isn't bringing you peace, then you're truly better off without me.
I love you, Kemisola. Always will... Whatever our decisions may be, and wherever our paths eventually take us. 💕
