𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔 (Captain America x Male Reader)

010.

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When I wake up I'm not in the Triskelion anymore, but in this white bright room with no windows or doors in sight. "What the hell?" I groaned to myself as I slowly get up from the ground trying to think of what to do, "Welcome to your subconscious" I hear a familiar voice behind me say, but I didn't even have to turn around to know who it was. Because it was the voice that I heard in my nightmares since I escaped, I slowly turn around to see me, the younger version of me that I kept seeing the last couple of days and he looked pissed. "This can't be happening" I say to myself, my actual other evil self, "Oh but it is" he says with a laugh. "This is where I've been since you wanted to be... a better person" he fake gags after saying this.

"I'VE BEEN STUCK IN THIS HELL, BUT NOW IT'S YOUR TURN" He shouts to me with venom in his voice and I feel something wrap around my wrist and pull me to the ground. I look down to see that there are now cuffs on my hands, "i won't let you do this" I declare trying to get the cuffs off me but they were stuck on tight. "Oh, you don't have a choice" he says with a laugh as he kneels down in front of me, "you see you're not in control anymore and thanks to Mr. Kill... I am" he responds with a smile that sent shivers down my spine. "Don't worry about your friends, I'll make sure I kill them quickly" he  tells me before getting up and walking away.

"Please, don't do this" I call out to him, "now you can feel how I felt, having to just sit back and watch" he says but doesn't turn around to me. "Don't worry you'll have a front row seat to the show" he says clicking his fingers together  and a screen appears Infront of me. A door appears and he walks through as he laughs. And now I was stuck here, and I didn't know if there was anything I could do.. I was stuck. "AHHHHHH" I shouted in anger hitting the cuffs on the ground, I couldn't believe that this was happening right now. The screen turns on and It's the room that I was just in, and I could see Natasha and Fury but they were looking at me with a worried looked. 

"Welcome back, Agent 1A3J123" Pierce says to me  handing me a gun with a wide smile on his face, "good to be back, sir" I reply back loading the gun and Pierce burst out laughing as his plan has worked. "Y/N, this isn't you" I hear Natasha say and I turn to her, "You don't know anything about me, and you won't need to after I kill you" I reply back to her pointing the gun towards her. I couldn't watch this anymore and  began to bang the cuffs onto the floor harder hoping there was a chance of them breaking, "stupid thing, why won't you break" I shouted, hitting them off the ground one last time and bursting into tears.

I look back at the screen to see that I was now pointing a gun at Fury then Natasha then back at Fury as he tried to figure out who to kill first, "Fuck" I shout with anger again as my voice echoes in the empty void. "Language Y/N" I hear another familiar voice from behind me, but I knew my mind was playing games on me because how the fuck could he be here. "Steve" I whisper to myself not wanting to turn around, "yes.. Well your version of Steve, the one you fell in love with" I hear him say and I turn around to see him. He was dressed the exact same way he was when I first saw him.

"What are you doing here?" I ask him, "to make sure you don't give up" he tells me, grabbing my hand. "But there's nothing I can do," I tell him, "I'm stuck." I continue looking back at the screen to see me fighting Natasha. "That's what he wants you to think, it's not him that has you stuck here, it's you" he explains to me. "What do you mean?" I ask him, "you let the fear take over, you need to show it that you are not afraid of it" he tells me. I knew it wasn't the real Steve but god was I really happy to see him because I was really losing hope right now.

"And how do I do that" I ask him, "by forgiving your old self and letting the real you be free" he tells me. I knew he was right, I had been pushing down the old  version of me and I was putting too much pressure  on the new version of me that I wasn't allowing myself the chance to breathe and just be myself. I was to worried if I wasn't doing something good all the time, I would go back to my old ways. "Now you got this, and when you get back out there, you let me know how you feel" he says with a smile, "will do Cap" i smile back to him before he disappears. Now to get myself out of these cuffs, but what the fuck do I do. "I'm not afraid of my past self, I'm not afraid of my past self" I kept saying to myself until I couldn't feel the tightness around my wrist anymore.