SECRET ADMIRER || E.Kaspbrak

"Don't you dare say it!"

I woke up to a very enclosed area that definitely
wasn't my bed which scared me instantly but it
almost felt like someone was carrying me in a box of
some sort. But my stomach dropped when I felt
myself getting lower towards the ground. until l
heard voices and people crying it was my mum
"Mum! Please let me out!" I screamed as I banged on
the wood that looked back at me.

"We gather here today to celebrate the life of Calista Lucy Grossman" A voice echoed through my head, by now I was yelling as splinters entered my knuckles.

But after that, it was muffled until "Let us go in
peace to live out the Word of God." But before she
knew it, she was lowered more and was finally
placed down. But after a few moments dirt started
dropping through the cracks and I knew exactly
what was going.

"Mum! Eddie! Richie! please let me out please!" I
screamed as tears flowed from my eyes as I felt the
air leaving the box that I now knew was a coffin. she
was horrified, scared and alone

After a few moments, the dirt stopped falling almost
like it wasn't there at all. Her mood dropped
especially since now it was silent, almost as if no one
was in the area.

I shoved the door which surprisingly opened which
caused me to beam in joy as I stood up, the walls
around me were dirt. I was buried alive and that
made goosebumps form on my arms and legs but I
climbed out of it and spun around to see nothing,
the hole disappeared.

My legs started moving without me knowing until I
was faced with a grave and it read,

"Here lies Calista Lucy Grossman, Hated daughter, and friend. 1976- 1989. Have fun underground!"

I looked down at the hole where the coffin laid but I
was terrified to even look at it. I grabbed a rock and
threw it at the moldy wood that broke easily and
there laid my body. I screamed as my corpse's eyes
widened but they were yellow but that wasn't the
only thing, my skin lighten to a pure white, my legs
grew breaking the bottom of the coffin, my hair now a dirty blonde, I slowly backed away from the coffin.

"What the fuck?" I backed away until I hit something
so I spun around to the clown that was once me.

"Hiya Cali, I'm Pennywise. would you like to float
with the other children." He chuckled as his mouth
opened to show multiple rows of teeth but I did the
first thing everyone does when shit like this
happens? I spun around and ran but of course with
my luck, I fell but I was met with a comfy surface.

My throat was raw from screaming as my mother
shook me and held me against her body as I cried

It felt so real.

It was definitely NOT fake.

••••••••••••

As I walked out of my house, I saw a red flag on our
mailbox up which meant we had mail so before I met
up with the boys, I checked the mailbox and it was
the same envelope as the one from school so l
smiled sweetly at it as I opened it

DEAR CALI,

HERE WE ARE AGAIN, WITH THE LOVE LETTER. BUT I HAVE A POEM FOR YOU I'VE NEVER BEEN THE TYPE TO SAY WHAT I FEEL SO BASICALLY I KEEP EVERYTHING INSIDE AND WITH YOU, IT WAS NO DIFFERENT I WANT TO TELL YOU, BELIEVE ME I'VE TRIED

BUT THERE'S PART OF ME THAT JUST CAN'T TAKE THAT CHANCE SO I DOUBT THAT YOU'LL EVER KNOW WHICH MAY BE FINE WITH YOU, BUT IT'S HURTING ME I CHOOSE NOT TO SHOW IT THOUGH

I GUESS I'M YOUR SECRET ADMIRER THAT NAME SEEMS TO FIT JUST RIGHT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU BUT YOU'RE ON MY MIND, DAY AND NIGHT

MAYBE IT'S THE WAY YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OR HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL WHEN YOU COME AROUND I INSTANTLY FORGET ALL OTHER STUFF