Rainy Midnight Thoughs

Frustration

Being here during the rain pouring it's feelings out its truly becoming a routine. Hmm, the feeling that shows itself at your heart's door when you feel that your hands are tied. It's truly not a pleasant feeling...You could be lead into placing yourself into a corner, perhaps even have your heart pour out in a vulnerable way at the situation. And oh, there comes those eyes of pity; calling you over and telling you good things about yourself with the thought that you'll easily get back on your feet. It works...if you depend on other's thoughts about you of course. The hilarious thing about it all is that after such frustration goes away and the water stops boiling, your mind gives you the clear piece of the puzzle on how things could have gone another way. 

After, you might just say,"If only I didn't let my emotions get a hold of me I could've been so much more cooler and sat at a better angle of the table!" Which makes you feel even more frustrated. How could you allow yourself to show emotions in front of others? You're supposed to be strong! You're supposed to be the one to have everything under control!...If only you never kept those emotions in the pot for that long. If you hadn't, the pot's water would have never overflowed. Nonetheless, there's no use crying over spilled milk. You know, I was told by a good ol' friend of mine how powerful vulnerability could be by itself. I mean, it's not everyday you see someone calm and collected show their emotions right? Maybe it's just a step up that stair of setting your feelings free.  

Perhaps, even be able to care freely for those you love or...the one who's supposed to call you theirs with the expectation that you'll be able to call them yours. Haha, sorry, the thought about a relationship might just lead to a more frustrated path right now. I'll await until the time comes to bring such topic again. Now, where were we?...