MATERNITY (Agile Assassins Series #1)

Chapter 16

Seraphine

Talk

Kakapasok pa lang namin sa condo Niya ay hinalikan na Niya ako agad sa pinto pa lang, he kissed me like a hungry beast, I try to break the kissed because we need to talk.

"Xander...we....need...to talk." I said between our kisses, he stop and look at me with his sleepy eyes with lust.

"We need to talk first." I said to him with my hand on his shoulder while his arms is hugging me.

"What is it then?" He ask serious with his interlocking eyebrows.

"About us." I said, he looked at me confused.

"Okay then, let's talk." He said and hold my hand and pulled me towards the sofa, we sit while I was looking at him nervous.

Why I'm nervous? I just want to talk.

"Are you okay? You looked nervous." He said worried, I looked away and bow down my head.

"I just want to talk about what you said yesterday, about the part you said that you're going to let me use you?" I said to him while I was playing with my fingernails.

"Hm, what about that?" He ask, i inhaled before I looked at him. He was waiting for me to talk with his confused clueless expression.

"I don't want the way you said your decision that I'm going to use you, I don't want that." I said to him, he looked at me like thinking and observing me. He narrowed his eyes.

"Then, what do you want?" He ask.

"You know the whole months that we are close except the week I avoid you, I can't explain the way I feel everyday when we are together including the way you care and take care of me it's too much gentle like a material man, I don't know but I think right i—" I stop talking when I looked at him he was smiling, like what's wrong? Did I say something wrong? Nasobrahan ba? Tangina, Hindi ko alam kung bakit ba ako umaamin sakanya sa gantong sitwasyon. Gusto ko lang Naman ayusin at Hindi siya misunderstood sa relasyon namin.

"You mean, you want more than that?" He ask still with a smirk on his lips, please stop it.

"I don't know, but yeah? I don't know, I don't understand myself." I said to myself, he cleared his throat and sit properly.

"Okay I understand you but right now let's take it slow, right now you confessed that you want more than that, you mean you don't want to use me but you want more than that. And the months you confessed that you can't understand the past few days you feel when we are together? Right?" He suddenly ask, I nod as I agree. Every words he said kahit Isa doon walang kulang dahil lahat ng sinabi Niya ay iyung gusto kong aminin sakanya.

"Tell me what you feel when we are together in those days." He said, I sigh and hesitate to answer. Do I need to confessed right now? It scared me.

"I feel... comfortable, and safe around you. The way you looked at me with worry and care I feel warm and I feel my heart beat go wild. And the way you act iniisip ko na Hindi mo lang ginagawa 'yun as a friend because for me I think that as more than friend." I said to him and can't even look at him because of shyness. This is my first time to confessed my feelings to a boy.

"Who said that we are friends?" He said and shot his eyebrows up. What?

I looked at him confused.

"What do you mean?" I ask him.

"Sera, the first day we met I know that you like me because the way you looked at me and I was too, masyadong manhid ka lang talaga kaya Hindi mo napapansin. And I'm sorry that I make you think it a wrong way, but the truth is I make those closure to you because I was falling to you too." He said, I was all shocked to know that in those months he like me too, he fall in love too.
"I'm sorry baby, I know this is a wrong timing." He said at napahilamos siya ng Mukha.