forbidden~anakin skywalker

༻six༺

   it's midnight. the council are usually all in their own quarters by now.
   i sneak into the file room and but my hand over the security lock as the doors open and the holographic net of files pop up all around me.
   i see the one labelled 'jedi code' and look into it so see if i can find what i'm looking for.
   attachment. bingo.
the file opens and i see 2 names: odilia berreve and casimir danaria
the file on them opens and i read:
-betrayed the order
-formed attachment
-had a child (in jedi care)
-betrayed the jedi/switched to the dark side
-odilia berreve:deceases
-casimir danaria:missing/probably deceased

so people fell in love and turned to the dark side of the force? that's why it's banned?
the fact they had a child together catches my eye and i open the file of their child to see which of the jedi is the child of the sith.
i stop when my file opens.
i read:
-imani ray danaria (imani-danaria ray kenobi)
-child of the sith
-adoption by obi-wan kenobi
-trained jedi

...i'm the daughter of the sith...it's all coming together. my father-i mean obi-wan-doesn't want me to fall in love and is so protective about it with me because he's scared i'm too much like my parents and could be driven crazy by love and go to the dark side like they did.
that would never happen though. i could never betray the jedi.
i hear the doors open and obi-wan's voice. "imani? what are you doing looking at the files you're not supposed to be in here, especially this late."
"why don't you let me look at the files?" i don't even turn around to look at him. "is it because you're scared of me finding out who i really am?"
he seems to not see that i am looking at my own file "what do you mean? you're imani-danaria kenobi...you're my daughter."
i shake my head "no. i'm not. i'm imani danaria. daughter of odilia berreve and casimir danaria. i was never a kenobi."
he stops for a moment... "now do you see why i was so adamant on enforcing the rules on you, especially this time."
   i nod "i do obi-wan."
   "i am not obi-wan." he sounds hurt by me not calling him father like i usually do. "i am your father."
   i shake my head "no you're not! my father is casimir danaria!"
   "is he?" he steps forward, stopping only a few intimidating inches from me. "did he raise you?"
   "...no...but nor did you. you sent me off to be trained by someone else when i was a baby. i could've stayed with you and been trained by master qui-gon with you. but you'd rather send me away. you never raised me."
   "i cared about you!" he raises his voice at me. "they wanted to kill you the second they found you but i stopped them! you're here because i defended that you could be raised to be a good person! now look at you. betraying the code. following in your parents footsteps. you may have the skills of a jedi but not the heart of one. i don't want to be your father anymore."
   tears prick in my eyes as he turns to leave. "i'm going to break it off with anakin." obi-wan stops in his tracks as i continue. "i never intended to break the code. i just wanted to love and be loved in return. now i know who i am and why it would be even more risky for it to be me falling in love...i'm breaking it off."
   "he cannot know about your parents. it's unspoken of."
   "i'll lie to him then. if he asks why and why now i will tell him something but not the truth."
   obi-wan steps towards me "good. i'm proud of you. you're doing the right thing...i'm proud to call you my daughter, even if it is just an illusion."
   "thank you...father."
   he smiles before leaving.
   i myself head back to my quarters to contemplate what i will tell anakin. i am not allowed to tell him the truth about my parents and my fear of becoming like them but i don't want to lie to him. but i'll have to.
a few days later, i still haven't spoken to anakin but senator amidala has showed up for protection as she has received death threats and even a few attempts on her life.
she recognises ani and my father but asks me "i don't believe we've met. who are you?"
i bow to her slightly and open my mouth to speak but anakin interrupts me "this is imani-danaria kenobi. master obi-wan's daughter."
"well it's lovely to meet you. you can call me padmé."
i smile in return "it's wonderful to meet you padme."
the next morning, my father is assigned to find whoever is trying to kill padmé while anakin and i take her to a remote location on her home planet of naboo and we take r2 with us.
the house is beautiful. it sits on the edge of the lake and you can see the hills and mountains beyond it and it's covered with vines and foliage and is absolutely beautiful.
in the afternoon, i'm sat on the field, picking flowers to make a crown. there were a lot of flowers where i trained and my master made me make flower crowns to learn precision and a steady hand so i've become really good at it.
i scream when i feel big, manly hands pull me down and roll me on top of who it is. anakin.
i giggle, wrapping his brain round my finger. "ani you scared me." i'm going to miss these moments. the kind, sweet moments he gives me and the flutters i feel in my stomach when i'm with him.
"what's this?" he asks, taking the chain of flowers in his hangs very gently.
"it's for padmé." i explain. "she needs a crown of flowers to match all those beautiful floral dresses she has. i learned to make these during my training. i know it doesn't sound like your usual jedi training but i wasn't trained with the rest of the younglings. my master taught me to make these because it takes a steady hand with a lot of patience and precision which is a very important skill."
he puts it in my head. "it's beautiful."
i love him.
but i can't love him. it's forbidden.