One/Two Shots----Zarry, Narry, Lirry Ziall

Ziall

i watched as he walks hand in hand with her.

i dont know if ive ever wanted someone that bad before but as i watch him walk and laugh with her i know my heart is breaking slowly.

its not like he doesnt know me, but more like he does seem like he wants to . but i know everthing about him .

i shouldnt want him.

all i ever get out of it all is more pain.

but he's so caring its hard not to want him.

I'm addicted.

hes like a drug that i cant get enough of. its more of a need now than a want.

i long for the day he sets his eyes on me in a different perspective, yet it will never happen.

our worlds will never clash with mine. boring, dull , lifeless, and more than anything disappointing at times.

to everyone my life seems perfect and fun and everything you could ever really want, do to me being in a boy band that is well know all over the world, but its so far from that.

im a shell of what i once was.

I'm broken to the point were i don't know whether i'll ever be whole again.

the only thing keeping me going is that bright light of what i like to call him.

who is 'him' you ask.

'him' is one of a kind, an original, a bright light to my life. a gift to mankind.

he is perfection.

his name is zayn malik.

ive never really been one to be all emotional but maybe this is the last of my emotions.

i feel myself slipping away to were no hands can pull me up but his.

i don't know if i'll ever be able to get over him.

I'm usually able to tell him everything but just cause I'm unhappy doesn't mean i want to make him unhappy.

i rather have it this way.

this may seem like my death letter but its not. its far from it. i don't believe in killing myself because that will only cause pain to the ones i love and I'm not that selfish even though there are days i want to be.

I'm starting to look again for something or better yet someone to replace or more like be a replacement to the one man i'll ever really admit to loving.

i cant do this though. ive been trying for weeks and yet ive been going out with people here and there yet no one seems to ever be enough.

what if he is the one I'm meant to be with but he doesn't know. i cant .

i must stop. i cant continue writing any more. this is all for now .

xxxniall

i reread the paper for the 3rd time and i still cant believe it.

Niall loves me?

but how he has never shown interest in me. if anything it feels like he is the one that wants nothing to do with me.

just reading this paper he wrote breaks my heart to know that he feels like this.

I'm known to be emotionless but its far from the truth. I'm just not one to sure them. i like to keep them to myself unless I'm to a breaking point.