Pov: episode 30 after Neslihan and Guven telling the kids about their plans for marriage, Alaz had an outrage and left the house.
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Alaz was driving to whom or to where he had no clue.
Who he had in this world to run to? No one.
He was always the person that people ran to not the other way.
Whether it was Cagla or Ece or even Ruya when they were kids and her parents had a fight.
He was breathing loudly not to be able to process the news that his mother just gave him.
His night started beautifully but ended in chaos of the fears that he always had. Being left out. Not being chosen.
Alaz felt he could faint any second due to lack of oxygen. He pressed the brake so hard that the wheels made the worst sound possible.
He didn't care at all. He managed to get out of the car. The cold air hit his face. He breathed as deeply as he could.
The amount of anger that was waving through him was almost out of his control.
The wall in front of him was exactly what he needed to be released from the pain of his anger.
Before he knew, he was punching the wall so hard and yelling harder from the bottom of his lungs.
"Alaz?"
Alaz ignored the familiar voice that called him.
"Alaz? What the hell are you doing? Stop!!!"
Alaz felt the hand that was grabbing him from behind trying to stop him from punching.
"You are hurting yourself! STOP IT!"
The hand grabbed him firmly and pulled him away from the wall.
He fell back few steps.
"Let me go!"
Suddenly the face of Asi appeared in front of the wall.
"No...look at me! Alaz...look at me."
Alaz locked eyes with the familiar eyes in front of him.
The eyes that were like pouring water on the fire that was brewing in him.
"Asi?"
Asi grabbed Alaz face firmly,shaking him.
"What happened to you? What's this condition?"
Alaz looked around. He finally recognized the familiar streets of Asi's neighborhood.
He didn't know how he got here. But he was glad. He felt he could breathe properly now.
"Oh my god! Your hands...look at your hands."
He looked back at Asi who was grabbing his hand in hers checking them out in horror.
Suddenly Asi felt being pulled in his arms so hardly.
Alaz was pushing her to himself like his life depended on it.
Asi could feel the desperation in his hug. The amount of pain in his touch.
She hugged him back tightly.
"Okay...it will pass...everything will pass...I'm here."
She said as she was caressing his back.
Alaz didn't know how long they were like this until Asi pulled back but not too far.
Alaz could see the worry waving in Asi's eyes.
He couldn't deny that he liked that someone was worried for him. Specially if that one person was Asi.
Asi one again grabbed his face in her hand hands, wiping the tears in Alaz's eyes that he didn't know he had shed until that moment.
She gabbed one of his hands while her other was around his waist.
"Let's go inside...you are shaking."
By saying that she walked over to his car grabbed the keys from it closed the doors and locked them while having Alaz's hand in hers and pulling him with her on every movement not wanting to leave his side not even for a second.
She then pulled him to herself tightly, pressing him to herself while leading him inside.
Few moments later Alaz was sitting on Asi's bed looking at a non existing point not realizing Asi left the room and rushed back a minute later sitting next to him.
"Alaz? Look at me...what happened? Did you and yaman fight again?"
Asi said pulling Alaz's face toward her by his chin.
"No...at least not yet..."
"What do you mean not yet? Did something happened to the girls? Or your mom?"
Alaz sneered at the mention of his mother.
"Yeah something did happen to her. She had gone mad!"
"What do you mean?"
Alaz looked at her.
"She wants to marry that man."
The way Alaz said that sentence carried so much pain that surprised Asi.
"What man? Guven abi?"
Alaz closed his eyes with frustration.
"Yes she wants to marry your precious Guven abi!"
Alaz said with tone of sarcasm mixed with anger stressing on Guven abi.
