I'll look after you

Lucky one

~ Blair's Point of view

Everyone from the group that had gone to Atlanta was coming out of the truck behind Glenn's new car, standing up I tried to get a closer look to see if my dad was coming, this bad feeling surrounded my heart, I already felt like crying. The last man to come out wasn't my father, and I fell on my knees sobbing, I saw Carl's face suddenly full of joy as he ran to the arms of the new guy, Lori followed his son.
- DAD! - Carl screamed still running, both father and son started crying, followed by his mother.
I put myself up again and walked over to Glenn.
- Glenn...where is my father? - No one in the camp had ever seen me cry, always with the armor up so Carl wouldn't laugh, but this time I couldn't hold it, I had never cry this hard, words barely sounded like words. - Is - I sobbed. - Is he coming?
Glenn knelt in-front of me, hugged me before he could say anything.
- We couldn't take him out, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry Blair... - Still hugging me as his words came out of his mouth, full of guilt I could tell, because he was the only one besides Merle that wasn't here.
I ran off of his arms back to my tent, my mom surely knew, I knew that she felt it before they even went. I entered the tent and saw her crying, she hugged me but I stopped crying, I needed to be strong for her, and anger came rushing overcoming my sadness. Did that actually happen, I am never going to see him again, I am going to forget his laugh, and smile, every joke, my dad, gone, forever. And not just that but now Carl's got his dad, why did this happen to me? And why Carl got his father and I didn't get mine? I begin crying again. So this is how I am going to feel every day of my life until I die, death is not gonna stop hunting me, and there's no possible way to shut this feeling down. Is the worse feeling I've ever had, pain all over my heart, how could it hurt so much?
Someone called from outside the tent, Carol's voice I could tell.
- Come in. - My mom said.
- I brought you some water honey - Carol handed the water to my mother. - I'm here for you, cry as much as you need, don't hide the feeling, it's worse... - My mom hugged Carol and started sobbing in her shoulder, she begin saying everything she regrets not doing or telling him, moments and all, Carol just kept saying "I know, it's ok, you were a wonderful wife".
I thought the feeling was the worse but what really got me was seeing my mother in that state of mind, she barely was standing hanging in Carol's hug. I knew what Carol said was right but I didn't wanna show it off how awful I was feeling.
I suddenly felt a hug from behind me, Sophia, she didn't say anything, just held me in her arms, for the first time in weeks I had a best friend, and she was there for me.
- I don't know what to do... - I said turning to her and lowering my head.
- What do you mean?
- I don't feel like doing anything, talking, walking, sitting, I don't feel like living.
- Don't say that, you are so strong and the bravest person I know, I'm your best friend Blair, I know you, and I knew your father, I know I can sound fake like everyone saying this but he would really, really like you to be your better self, win the world, this is gonna end! One day a cure will appear, I'm sure.
- I'm just tired, but I know you're right, I'm sure you're right, I'm gonna be fine... - I looked to my left and saw Carl giggling in his father arms, the most happy he could be, Lori by their side smiling. All those questions came up again, is this just bad luck? Wasn't I chose to get her father today by God? This is so unfair.
- It's getting late, come eat and then you can sleep!-Sophia grabbed my hand and led me to the fire.
- Ok...

After a few hours I head back to the tent, my mother was quiet but I guess better, it felt so weird not having him here, the worse part is that I can't do anything about it, just accept. I laid down and close my eyes, sleep didn't come, tears did. Somewhere between midnight and 1am I fell asleep in my silent cry.
By morning Jim was already up and started digging like crazy, Dale was worried about him, and when Daryl came back he freaked out about Merle being left in the city handcuffed on a roof.
- No easy way to say this, so I'll just say it. - Rick said walking over to Daryl.
- Who are you? - Daryl asked.
- Rick Grimes.
- Rick Grimes? - Daryl said mocking Rick. - You got something you wanna tell me?
- Your brother was a danger to us all, so I handcuffed him on a roof, hooked him into a piece of metal. He's still there.
- Hold on...let me process this. You said you handcuffed my brother to a roof? AND YOU LEFT HIM THERE?
-...Yeah. - Daryl rushed into the men including Rick and tried to fight them, but they got him controlled.