[✔︎]# ꒰ 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐓, 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 ꒱

# ꒰ 𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐘 𝟎𝟎𝟕 ꒱

-𐙚 ՞ NOT A LOT,
JUST FOREVER՞ ⁣𐙚-

August 2016

↯. 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐊𝐔𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐎̄𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎̄,

hi kō baby!! I miss ︎youu. ❤︎︎ so kiyoko and Tanaka officially moved in with us for the meantime due to me getting weaker haha!

So I found out I'm having the baby in November probably due to me becoming more weaker as you know. I'm still getting that bad feeling in my gut but hopefully nothing bad happens to me but I can't help but worry. I miss you so much it feels weird sleeping without you in the same bed with me and the feeling of your warm skin.

My headaches have been becoming worse and the medication doesn't help at all. I've been coughing out blood now for some reason and I can't help but think I'm going to die or something. I really hope that does happen because there's so much things I want to do with you and the baby and places I want to explore! To be honest I'm actually s̸c̸a̸r̸e̸d̸ terrified. I'm terrified because what if I don't get to see my baby learn how to walk?

What if I'm not able to see her talk for the first time and see her grow up? See her go to school for the first time? Get her first boyfriend or girlfriend? Or when she gets her first period? What if I won't be able to teach her how to do her makeup? I'm terrified of that. I've always wanted a kid kōtarō, you know that more than anyone.

you're probably not going to get any of the letters I make anytime soon anymore since you're coming back.

I've noticed myself becoming more skinny and pale by each day. But hopefully the baby's healthy right?
I hope so, I'm having another appointment for her tomorrow I'll tell you the updates. I'm going to get some rest now since I feel sleepy.

Bye kōtarō !! I love you so so much! ❤︎︎.
↯. LOVE, Y/N L/N