You were never easily impressed
Always hated the way I dressed
Ashamed I dressed like a boy when I was your daughter
But no matter what I did I received no love from my father
Can't help but flinch
As I remember those druken hits
I still tried to be a good kid
No matter what you did
I tried so hard to win some parental love
But for you it was never enough
I just wanted to make you proud
But where are you now?
Guess nothing I did could make you stay
So now I'm here wonderin day after day
What I coulda done right
Maybe if we just had one less fight
Maybe if I didn't dress like a dude
You'd love me too
Maybe if I acted like a girl
Then I'd mean something in your world
Maybe if I wasn't bullied in school
You wouldn't think of me as a fool
Made fun of me for never standing up for myself
But nothing I did ever helped
Guess it doesn't matter anymore
Cause you still walked out that door
I only have myself to blame
So I punished myself with pain
So when I sneak into the liquor cabinet
Or smoke another cigarette
Tell me are you proud
Of what I am now?
Not even gonna try
All I wanna do is die
Just tell me why
I was never good enough
To win your love
Fuckin answer me
What the fuck made you leave?
No matter how hard I tried
Every night I cried
Desperately thinking of what to do
To at least slightly impress you
To make you hate me a bit less
Doesn't matter cause you still left
I tried so hard to change
But you still brought me pain
Remember when I told you i was gay
Told me to permanently stay away
To get outta your life for good
Even though I did everything I could
To keep that from happening
You still hated me
Well fuck you dad
You have all the hatred I've ever had
