Mom where are you?
Dad left now you too?
I don't live with you anymore
You practically kicked me out your door
Dad you haven't written me from jail
Don't know if I really care
Haven't seen you in a year
Seeing you only brings fear
Mom you never call
It's like you've built a brick wall
Too busy starting a new family
Than to even think of me
I'm your fuck up
I've never seen you look at me with love
All I want is that parental love and care
Then maybe my heart wouldn't constantly tear
Always trying to prove myself
To parents that never offered me help
Mom when dad left you weren't there
You left too without a care
Promised me it would all be okay
But you lied and I will never beg you to stay
My parents were the first to break my heart
I've been getting beaten up from the start
Things have always been rough
And I was never enough
Mom you have no remorse
No regrets
Your sarcastic apologies make it worse
And it's no secret
You don't love me
If you did this isn't what I would be
A manipulative monster
Who's scared of being left
So I trick girls
Into falling for me
So I can break them and leave
Because it makes me feel in control
But truth is it breaks my soul
I'm scared all the time
But their attention makes me feel wanted and fine
My actions are good but my intentions are evil
It's myself I want to hurt and kill
I am a monster
I fell for her
I was in love
But I wasn't enough
My first girlfriend cheated on me
Since then I want others to feel the same
I want them to know my pain
I ended up breaking her heart
And that was just the start
I did it for awhile
But then I met a girl who made me smile
I treated her right
But my heart lost the fight
I complimented her
Did everything I could
But she didn't care
There was always something better there
Loved every guy
But not the person who made it their mission to not let her cry
I walked her to class
Stopped smoking grass
Stopped drinking
Tried to save her from sinking
Put my demons to rest
But in the end she left
So my walls are back up
She didn't see me as enough
All I wanna do is make her hurt
She kicked me to the dirt
Now I want her to look me in the eyes
And fall for my disguise
Feed her lies
So I can break her heart
I've been this way from the start
