Lover's Oath [ON HOLD]

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I walked towards the swing nearby and sat down. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the silent atmosphere.

I definitely needed this.

Everything that's happening is only putting extra stress on me. I still have to put up with my "smart" reputation.

Come to think of it, everyone just somehow relies on me everytime it's about academics.

They automatically assumed I "never had to study" because I'm already smart enough.

It makes me feel invalidated.

Are my efforts unseen?

Are they all in vain?

My efforts, useless and seen unworthy?

Or maybe it's too much?

Whenever someone from my class sees me studying or reading a book that's not even remotely close to what we're studying, they always complain about one thing:

"Leave some knowledge for us!"

Am I doing too much? Or maybe it's them who's not putting enough effort?

I am both hurt and confused...

I'm just doing what I can, why does it seem like it's my fault for being best in what I'm good at?

I let out a sigh and let my head down.

It's cold.

Before I could relax, I heard some familiar voices not so far.

I opened my eyes and saw Heizou and Y/n taking a walk outside, their footsteps making a loud sound because of the snow.

Heizou?

What's he doing with Y/n?

I stood up and approached them. I felt like the air intensified and my lungs tightened with every step I took.

And finally, I stood behind them.

"Heizou?"

I called out.

He turned to look at me with a glare.

"What are you doing here?" He asked with suspicion in his tone of voice.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in your dorm?" I replied.

Y/n could only stare.

I glanced at her and she visibly flinched.

I frowned and looked away, feeling guilty and hurt.

I've done something that hurt her and I could only feel guilty for it.

"The audacity to show your face after what happened." Heizou scoffed.

"How shameless. You two really do complement each other, huh." I raised a brow in confusion.

I was shocked.

I had no idea what he was talking about.

"Heizou, I honestly have no idea what you're talking about." I sighed.

"Can you please explain?" Heizou only scoffed once again.

Here we go again...

"Didn't she just confess to you?" He asked.

I tilted my head to the side out of confusion and crossed my arms.

"Love?" I asked. Heizou nodded, not saying a single word.

"I think you got it all wrong." I smiled awkwardly, but Heizou stood proud, not willing to listen to my reason.

"No, I think we got it all right." Heizou crossed his arms at me, still wearing a frown.

"Love never confessed to me. What are you talking about?" This time, Heizou's confident aura became hesitant.

"Why are you acting so hostile?" I asked.

I sighed and stared at him until my mind connected the dots. My face lit up upon understanding.

"I think you should apologize to Love. Didn't you also like her?" Heizou didn't reply and could only look away.

"This isn't you, Heizou. What's gotten you so worked up?" I asked out of concern for him.

"You won't know a thing or two even if I tell you."

Hearing that, I just snapped. I let out a sigh and nodded.

"I see how it is. So be it." With those words, I turned my back on them.

I could hear Heizou's footsteps trying to reach me but I didn't feel his touch. He hesitated.

That's how it is.

Then I'll leave them alone.

They can be together for all I care.

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probs the shortest chapter i ever wrote

(casually added my school trauma <3)