on a rainy day || MYG

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The room is quite cold. There must be cold wind blowing outside. It looks like it will rain heavily. The curtain's are flittering. A single beam of light is shining on the white floor of the room. The light is off. But the room is not dark. Everything is visible in the rays coming through the thin curtain.

After putting a band-aid on your neck, Yoongi touched your left cheek with a gentle touch. Tucking your hair behind your ear, he asked in a soft voice, "Anywhere else?"

Even though you are lying on his chest for so long, his soft voice made your inner cry come out. You lowered his hand from your cheek and took them in your own hands and started crying. Tears rolled down continuously making his kurta wet.

Yoongi was shattered by the existence of your tears on his chest. Everything was so messed up. Why did this innocent girl have to endure so much pain? Why didn't he come earlier? Why did that man touched her?

The speed of your crying is increasing. Yoongi is disoriented by the pain, after he couldn't find a way to stop you he hold your head against his chest a little harder. He wiped your cheeks and eyes with his hands and said,
"Don't cry, I'm here."

Your cry increased. You're not in your right mind now. You gripped his arms very tightly. Your nails seemed to dig in. You are scratching him. There is no way to stop you.

Yoongi did not said anything. His arm started to bleed. If doing this can reduce your pain then he won't stop you, he will let you scratch him. Suddenly your hand stopped. You pressed your forehead against his chest and cried out,

"You were not there. You were not there for me. There was no one. I was alone". Saying this, your devastating figure calmed down. You raised your face and looked at his arm.

There were dots of blood on his white kurta. You lowered your hands from his arms. You hugged him slowly and buried your head in his chest, closed your eyes and said in a dead voice,

"That man came. Touched my body. He bit me on my neck and shoulder. You know, I tried. I tried a lot. But I couldn't stop him. The man did not leave me. I screamed, no one heard my painful screams. I could not bear those touches. Hip, back, chest, throat everywhere. It's disgusting! Then.. then suddenly he let go of me. Messed up my hair and lipstick. I couldn't do anything."

After being silent for a while, you again said in a crying voice, "Why didn't Chaewon come a little earlier? Why didn't you come? I was waiting. You will come and save me from him." Saying this, your face became red again. Tears started failing on his chest.

Now Yoongi understand that nothing too bad happened to you. But what happened is not less. This is enough to left a deep scar on the mind of this very pure girl.

Really, why didn't he come? It was his responsibility to keep your safe. Why can't he? Why did he have to fail when he was about to make you his?

"Am i stigmatized?" You asked him innocently.

Even if yoongi controlled himself for long, but now your question made his eyes wet. A drop of his tear rolled down on your forehead. He wiped his eyes and put his hand on your cheek, said in a deep voice,

"You are the purest woman, no stigma can touch you."

You lowered your eyes. Silently crying. This man thinks your are pure, but others think you as stigmatized. In their eyes, you are inferior, impure. How can I get rid of this pain?

A long time passed in silence. You broke the silence, "can i say something?"

"yes love"

"Please don't marry me. People will say bad things about you."