Where is my Love ? (Eng. {KawaSumi})

🍡Chapter 7🍡

Sumire's Pov

The four of them stayed for a month, Hinata wanted to make sure I wasn't missing anything, when she was sure she could leave with good Feeling. It was very nice to see them again . Himawari looked after Tsuki , that's was very sweet.
After the four had left, I returned to my everyday life. Tsubaki's parents continued to support me,  so  my class did. The headmaster of the school allowed me to take my son to class with me, Tsuki was a very quiet and relaxed boy. He didn't distract me during lessons and I was able to follow the curriculum as normal. My class always joined in very well, it felt like a small family. When I breastfed Tsuki with my breast milk, I always put a thin blanket over both of us. So my students didn't have to see it, I didn't know how they would find it or feel about it. My pupils often stayed longer at school to talk to me, I felt important again after a long time.
After lessons, I played with Tsuki and helped Tsubaki's parents with the housework. Tsubaki's mum didn't like cooking so much, so I took over.

As time went on, I no longer had to breastfeed Tsuki, he was slowly fed baby food, his favourite was a porridge made Out of carrots and apples.
Tsuki gradually grew into a small child. He got the same hairstyle as his dad, only he had purple and black hair.

I recorded all the changes and progress in a book, I took photos and stuck them in. I didn't leave out a single detail. Tsuki was  4 years old.
I am  20 years old.
In fact, I still had the same class,  the rules were different in the Iron Kingdom. The students learnt the way of the samurai and the shinobi.
The headmaster and I planned a class trip to konohagakure for them,  they wanted to see the hero who had ended the war. I would be returning after 4 years, was I ready for that? No, not really, but I thought it was a good thing that someone had made me do it.
I was assigned to the class trip and three Jonin were to accompany me and the children.
When I handed out the notes for the school trip, everyone was beaming.

"Please get your parents to sign if they agree," I said. I looked at yuu who no longer had parents, he lived in an orphanage. "Yuu I'll sign for you," I added.
"Really?" he said in a happy voice.
"Of course," I replied.
At this point, my class could be compared to a collection of many suns. They were laughing and smiling, which immediately made my heart beat faster as it reminded me of my son and himawari.
The rest of the day went on as usual, I played with Tsuki, cooked, did some cleaning, prepared the lessons and continued writing in Tsuki's book.

Tsuki asked more and more often about his father and I told him that That he would  meet his father. I told him a lot about kawaki. Tsuki listened to my voice as if it were a melody.
My relationship with my son was perfect. I had no secrets from him, he knew everything.. We loved each other very much.
My heart was so full of happiness and love, but it also longed for kawaki. The last piece of the puzzle was missing. I missed his smile, his voice, everything. Now my thoughts were plaguing me again and I sighed.

"Mum?" Tsuki's voice brought me back to reality. I looked at him.
"Yes, my angel?"
"What's wrong? Your eyes are losing water," he asked worriedly, I hadn't even realised I was crying.
"I miss your father... I wish every new day that I had told him how I felt about him, but I only wrote it to him."
Tsuki placed his small hands on my cheeks and wiped  my tears away. 
Then he climbed on top of me and cuddled up to me, which brought a smile to my face.

The next morning I woke up and got Tsuki and myself ready, we had breakfast with Tsubaki's parents and then we went to school.
My pupils held the notes right into my face.
I collected them and put them in my locker, then we had 5 hours of lessons.
In the last lesson, I told them all about the school trip, Because the class wanted all the information.
"We're all staying in a youth hostel, but there's a catch, the youth hostel doesn't have any Employees. so we have to cook and Clean  for ourselves. I'm going to take my son with me so he can meet his dad," I said.

"Does anyone have a problem With cooking for themselves?" I asked.
My pupils all shook their heads.
I was very happy with this and continued.

Kawaki's Pov

It had been over 4 years now, my heart still yearned for her.
I was very interested in her, I wondered what she looked like now, if she still had that gentle personality and if she had found someone.
Her letter was very important to me, it was the last thing that came from her.
In the last four years, Yoko terrorised me more and more, she felt like a stalker. The salad, also known as sarada, said that sumire also had a stalker in the Academy.
Nevertheless, I hadn't been travelling alone since then. That's why I was a bit more relaxed.
As time went on, however, several puzzles arose: where did Mum, himawari, Eida and Code go? Where did they stay for so long? Why was Himawari always so excited? Why did they keep secrets from us?
When I confronted them, they both always said that I would find out, but not from them.
So many questions, no answers.

I was lying in my bed, I noticed the moon in the sky, I got up and went to the roof. I looked at the moon. I had the feeling that the moon was a connection to Sumire. I didn't notice Himawari.

"I want sumire back, Bring her back to me ..Bring me  my nurse back, my smart arse, my tender soul, my guardian angel and my sumire. She doesn't have to love me. I just want her in konoha," I said. I picked up her letter and looked at it.

"I love you too, Sumire," I added. Only now did I notice Himawari, but only because she was giggling.
"Himawari, you're really curious," I said and turned around.
Himawari sat down next to me and handed me a letter.
"I'm supposed to give you this from a very special person," she said.
"From Yoko?" I asked seriously.
She shook her head.
I opened the letter and recognised the handwriting , it was Sumire's handwriting. She had signed it with a little heart. I was so happy that I lost sight of the water.
Himawari hugged me and was happy for me too.
This letter triggered a lot in me, but it showed me that she was still alive. Knowing that reassured me immensely.
"Did it come by post or by falcon?" I asked.
Himawari didn't say anything and distracted me from the subject. I let it go for now, after all, I had received a letter.

"Himawari? Do you want to read me the letter?" I asked.
She nodded at me and I gave her the letter.
She began to read it aloud. I listened intently.

"Hello Kawaki,
I can imagine that you have some questions for me and I promise that I will be able to answer them.
I hope you're looking forward to it a little.

Before you wonder how I will answer your questions, I will be in konoha soon. But when I get there, I'd like to introduce you to someone,

Himawari read on, but after the last sentence I didn't hear any more. Has she found someone? Do I want to meet my rival?
I didn't even listen anymore, the last sentence would have stopped my thoughts.

"I love you Kawaki"

This sentence was written underneath like her name, but I was lost in my thoughts. It was like a maze.
I lay on my back and stared at the moon. I was already hallucinating because I saw sumire's face in the moon.
At the same time, I decided to cut my hair short again. I knew from himawari and Eida that sumire liked my short hair.
I got up and went into the bathroom, I took a pair of scissors.
Hinata came in and asked "what are you doing?"
"I want my old hairstyle back, the one I had at the beginning," I replied.
She smiled at me.
"Let me do it darling," she said. I agreed and she started,  more and more hair fell to the floor.
I looked in the mirror and was very pleased, Mum had cut everything very precisely.
"Thank you mum," I said.
"You're welcome", she replied.

"Good night mum," I said and went to my room and went to bed. But I couldn't sleep yet.
She was in my head and in my heart.
How should I deal with her having a boyfriend?
How should I treat her at the meeting?
When is the meeting?
What should I ask her?
What if I overwhelm her?
What if I have a mission?
After all, I had reached Jonin status

I put my head in the pillow and wanted to scream, but I didn't.
I got up one last time and wrote down all my thoughts.
There were a lot of them.
I didn't even know that worked.
I thought about the question I had just asked and said to myself: "I'm probably the one who is overwhelmed"