STRAWBERRIES AND CIGARETTES || PARK JIHOON

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Yn just woke up from her nap and yawned. She remembered the words Junho said to her earlier when she said about 'Him' returning back. He said to stay away from him as Junho and Yoona know how much Yn suffered and she lost herself during that process.

Yn decided to walk around the city as her mood was getting low second by second. She wore a black skirt paired with a black crop top. She wore a white jacket on top of that and exited her room.

She quietly descended the stairs and she heard giggles and laughter coming from the kitchen. She silently walked towards the noise and she peaked in a little.

She saw Yoona sitting on the kitchen island while Junho was mixing the batter. They both had flour dust on their cheeks and they were laughing about something she doesn't know. Her heart clenched at the sight as the past memories started hitting her.

She felt like her heart was shedding silent tears and she wanted to gaze away from them to get away from those past memories but yet she stood there watching it. After a few seconds she could not bear the pain and she walked away.

She put a quick text to her sister that she went out to stroll outside for a while. She started walking silently in the streets. It was 8 pm and many people were returning to their homes from their work.

She quickly decided to call Seungmin. The phone rang as she silently walked, waiting for him to pick the call. After a few rings he picked the call
"Where are you?" She asked and heard shuffling sounds from the background

"Family dinner, and it's hella boring" he said making her chuckle. The sound of horn around her reached his ears through the call "Where are you?" He asked "Just came out for a walk" she replied

There was a pause for a few minutes "Do you want me to come? I can explain my parents and accompany you" he said making her smile. She knows they rarely have family dinner as his parents are always busy.

"No, spend time with them. I just called to ask what were you doing" she answered making him hum. Then she bid him bye and ended the call. She gazed at the sky which was filled with stars and smiled softly.

This was the only time she smiles- when she was alone. She always made herself look tough and cold towards others after a certain incident but when she is alone she knows how much her heart has suffered and how tired she is from the burden.

She kept walking and reached a restaurant and it had been days since she ate in an average restaurant rather than five star one, which she eats often.
She walked inside and found some girl groups or some men who were enjoying their time in groups. This restaurant even served alcohol and they all were enjoying their time to the fullest.

She took a corner table and looked through the menu. She ordered a meal which was available for dinner. She even ordered soju along with it. She didn't plan on consuming alcohol but she did to make her heart feel light.

An hour passed and her cheeks were covered with red taint and she was smiling ear to ear. If anyone would see her smiling like this they would faint as they never saw her smile till now. She had gotten drunk and now it was hard to process things in her mind.

She left the money on the table and stood up stumbling a few times. She came out of the restaurant and the cold wind hit her skin making her squeal. She giggled like a small kid and started walking.

Not a minute passed and she was about to trip again but she was caught by someone. She weakly gazed at the person and saw a black orb staring back at her with concern. She pushed him slightly and stood straight.

She pointed her finger at him and giggled a little "What is the great Park Jihoon doing here?" She asked making him sigh. He smiled "Am here to take you home. Your condition isn't good let's go" he said softly and she pouted making him aww at her. She nodded her head.

He was about to turn to go at the direction of her home but she turned in the opposite direction and started walking. He sighed and followed her and walked next to her. She suddenly sat on the footpath making him stop on his track. He slowly sat next to her not caring about their surroundings.

"Why are you sitting along with me?" She questioned him "I would do anything with you" he said and shrugged "How did you even know I am here" she asked and he remembered what happened a few minutes ago

Jihoon was in his room playing a game on his PC but he received a call. He saw it was from Seungmin so he received it immediately thinking it maybe emergency

'Yn went out alone for a walk and I know she will get drunk. I can't accompany her so will you please take care of her for me? I'm stuck in family dinner' Seungmin asked 'Don't worry I'll make sure she reaches home safely' Jihoon said making Seungmin hum

She suddenly lay down on the footpath not caring about the people giving them weird looks. Jihoon also lay down next to her and both gazed at the sky. Even though the surroundings were covered with bustling sound they decided to ignore it and gaze at the sky.

"Why are you hurting me more Jihoon, just go away and let me be how I am" she said and pouted making him gaze at her "I can never do that Yn. Tell me to stop breathing which I can freely do but not going away from you" he said making her scoff

She sat straight and he did the same "Go find some other girl" she said and he shook his head "Your the only girl who makes my heart reach a stage of serenity. Everything blurs for me when you're around and you have become my habit which I can't get rid of" he said

She gazed at him and he too held the eye contact "My heart is broken into pieces, stop it already Jihoon" she said and her voice was getting heavy as the heaviness inside her heart started showing up.

The wall she built these days was slowly falling in front of him and she didn't want him to see her this side. Yet she failed to hold her emotions. Her heart started throbbing as the past memories started killing her.

She felt so suffocated just by thinking about it. Was it all she deserves after being loyal and sincere to someone who just broke it in a few minutes.

"I'm here to pick up those broken pieces one by one Yn. I'll patch it up myself and make it recover soon" he said and she shook her head "You can't mend broken things Jihoon just stop trying" she said and stood up. The alcohol effect was slowly giving up as reality started hitting her up making her sober bit by bit.

He stood up and held her hands softly "It bleeds my heart equally to watch you like this Yn. The smile I gave you every time you gaze at me with disgust is filled with dept of sorrow in my heart which is indescribable. I'm more broken than you are and I want to mend things for you, for us" he said softly

Finally tears fell from her eyes and she hated herself at that moment. She yanked her arm away from his grip and turned towards him. She glared at him but yet he stood there having a sad smile on his face

"Why are you back Park Jihoon. To break me again as you did three years ago? I HATE YOU" She said while glaring at him