Butterflies(femxstud)

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Zariyah POV:

I woke up to a loud scream, at first I was scared not even gonna lie then I noticed Lai sitting up with her legs hanging off the bed panting and sweating hard.

"Ma" she didn't answer just kept hyperventilating. I sat up and reached for her shoulders but the second I touched her she grabbed arm and yanked me forward flipping me over her and the bed.

She may be small but damn she's strong as hell. The second I hit the ground the wind was knocked out of me and my head hurt.

"I- dang it I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."
She spoke frantically while getting up from the bed.

I started to sit up and wave her away a little. "You cool Lai sit down." I got up and stretched then looked at her again she looked like she was about to say something then stopped herself and sat back down putting her head in her hands.

"Take some deep breaths I'll be back." I went to grab a warm rag and some water. I looked around a bit to see if her medicine was in the bathroom or something but I didn't see it so I assumed she kept it with her.

Once I got back in the room she was curled up laying on her side crying lightly. I sat the water down on her nightstand then went to the other side of the bed and sat down.

I pulled her lightly by the back of her shoulder and she turned over laying her head on my lap. I patted her forehead with the warm rag while massaging her scalp at the same time.

About 10 years ago my sister was having nightmares after the accident for like a year and I always did watever I could to make her feel better. I guess it's a good thing I can sort of figure out how to help Lai but at the same time it's just bringing back bad memories.

I don't like feeling sad though I've already done my grieving there's no need to sulk anymore so I'll just put those thoughts back where they came from in the far back of my mind.

"Ma". She hummed in response along with a sniffle.

"You wanna talk about it?" She didn't answer, she just took some deep breathes and I could tell she relaxed some. After a few minutes she sat up and took her medicine.

"I'm going to take a shower, you should go back to sleep thank you though." She smiled a little then walked away before I could respond.

I laid on my back and just stared up at the ceiling until I dozed off, I spent the whole time thinking about Alaisha and how we first met to where we are now and how i got no clue where we're going but that's life I guess.

Alaisha POV:

As I stepped into the warm water i instantly felt soothed but everything still hurt so I couldn't help but stand there and cry.

The tears were silent but fell from my eyes heavily. I grabbed my rag and and washed up and thought about everything I've been through.

A huge part of me wishes I could scrub myself of all this heartache but I know even scrubbing to my bare bone wouldn't rid me of my past. I thought about my mom and my sister and all the people I hurt, all the people that hurt me.

The difference between my pain from others vs other kinds of pain it's always mental you know, the stuff they say only time can heal yet I've been here 20 years and I'm still not healed. I saw my mom die and then I thought I lost my twin for years, I even had a friend while in training but of course she was a liar so I had to kill her.

After a while my mind calmed down and the shower relaxed me exactly how I hoped it would. As I got out the shower I remembered what I just did to Zariyah.