Piece of You | Macolet #1

Chapter V: You & I

Maeve's POV:

I won't deny that after Callie told me everything about Felix, I couldn't help but to remember things that were buried in the past. I suddenly remembered the things that left me in misery.

I immediately understood the pain that Jia is going through right now. I know there are thoughts in her head asking what went wrong, what she did wrong and so much more.

5 years ago.

"Aalis ka? Sige umalis ka!" Sigaw ni mama sa baba.

"Talagang aalis ako! Bahala na kayo sa buhay nyo.!" Sigaw pabalik ni Papa, hindi ko maiwasang sumilip mula sa hagdan.

Bago ko pa mapigilan ang pag alis ni papa, he was already outside leaving me and mama in our home. Bumaba ako kasi biglang umupo si mama i immediately checked on her.

"Mama, okay ka lang po?" Tanong ko sakaniyq, tinitigan nya lang ako ng matagal hangga't sa napansin ko na papaiyak na sya.

She hugged me tightly and there, her eyes swelled with tears. I hugged her back and comforted her.

"Nak, nak hindi na kaya ni mama. Hindi na okay si mama." Hagulgol nya saakin habang niyayakap ako.

I knew I had to be strong for my Mother, that's why I forced myself not to cry in front of her too. Sigurado ako na ako yung pinagkukuhanan nya ng lakas ngayon.

"Nak.. I'm so sorry kung hindi ko maibibigay yung buhay na kumpleto tayo ha?" Napaluhod sya sa harap ko habang hawak hawak yung kamay ko.

"Nak, please don't give up on me. Wav mo sukuan si mama ha?" Dagdag nya pa, lumuhod ako at niyakap sya.

"Ma, okay lang. Ilabas mo lang po." Bulong ko sakaniya, my eyes started to explore our home.

A home now empty, filled with sorrow. A home that was once lively turned into a quiet and dark home.

Home that doesn't feel like home.

"You'll be safe here ma, iyak mo lang." Dagdag ko pa at mas naramdaman ko yung higpit ng yakap nya.

"Nak i'm so sorry.. i'm-.. i'm so sorry.." sagot nya sakin at patuloy na humahagulgol. Honestly, i was shattered to pieces hearing my Mother cry, hearing her gasp for air.

"If I would've been a better wife, kumpleto pa sana tay-"

"Shh, mama hindi mo kasalanan. Okay lang po, okay lang mama."

"Pero nak-"

"No more buts ma. Wala kang kasalanan, it's not your fault."

"Nak pasensya na ha? Dapat malakas ako para sayo eh. Dapat malakas ako, dapat ikaw yung cinocomfort ko ngayon."

"Ma, hindi mo naman kailangan maging malakas. Hindi mo kasalanan na umalis si papa, makakabawi tayo ma, makakaahon tayo okay?" I reassured her and hugged her tightly.

Mas kailangan ako ngayon ni Mama, i have to be strong for her.

"Everything will be okay." Bulong ko sakaniya.

Since that night, mama was not the same anymore. Only then she told me na merong ibang pamilya si papa, when she broke that news to me i felt like I was betrayed, I felt like everything lost its meaning.

Every pictures, every memory hits different now and i couldn't help but to wonder if those smiles and laughter were really pure and real.

Bumalik muna ako sa kwarto ko at umupo sa kama habang tinitignan yung picture namin ni Papa noong bata pa ako. Nakakandong ako sakaniya habang si mama naman yakap yakap kami ni Papa.