To love you

Part 16

I opened the door with the spare key I had
I rushed to his bedroom he was trying to breath so hard
He looked at me
He started crying triggering it more
'Rohan it's okay I'm here please breathe' I said
I put my hands on his chest
'Make it move , slowly' I said
'Breath in breath out' I instructed him while he followed
Soon after he was normal he was breathing normally
'What happened rohan ?' I asked
'It was panic attack I have it since childhood' he said
'Come here ' I pulled him on my lap
Hugging him closer to my body
'Did something trigger it ?' I asked
'One day I came here in mumbai with my parents we were eating at a restaurant, my parents told me to wait for them I was waiting for them and they never returned , I kept waiting for them but they never did so I went to an orphanage people there bullied me a lot cause I was gay , then they removed me from there so I worked hard and got to where I'm today but that still stayed with me so whenever I feel someone's gonna abandoned me I get this panic attack ' he explained
He unknowingly curled into me
'I don't know what to say , I'm so sorry' I said I too had tears in my eyes
'It's okay now I moved on from my parents hopefully I get over this abandonment issue soon' he said
'Was it because of me ? What happened today was it me who triggered it ?' i asked
'To be honest, you said you were ending things I kept playing those scene inside my head and I got panic attack' he said
'I'm so sorry so sorry ' I said
'You didn't know' he said
I started leaving soft kisses all over his faces
He started kissing my neck
'Don't' I sad he was confused sad
'I wanna start fresh everything that happened forget it let's start new' I said pecking his lips
'People don't do that on first meet' He said
'Ooo is it like that rohan sir okay' I started tickling him pinning him down on sofa
'Rohan mayra wanted us to take her to a picnic just us three but let's wait we are starting fresh once we get enough comfortable with each other we'll go then' I said
'Sounds great  ' he said
'Do you want me to stay here ?' I asked
'No it's okay ' he said
'No I'm taking you home let's go ' I packed his bag taking him to my house
'Mayra was right that little brains work better than mine' I said
'What was she right about?' He asked
'About certain something or someone I was too fool to acknowledge that' I said
I just smiled knowing this might be something I wanted my entire life