𝐓𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬

21. Distrust

You could've asked me
Why i broke your heart

Hey! Lately i have been noticing a drop in comments and trust me I really I am not upset with any of you because i somewhere feels that the quality of the recent chapters was not good, I was not satisfied with the chapters yet i uploaded them just so i don't get left out in the race. I was expecting a drop in comments but it shook me when the comments literally went from 3k to 1.5k, that is where my heart broke so I am currently here trying to apologise for not providing quality content. I am so sorry. Sometimes a person doesn't always want a 'Yes perfect hai' Occasionally I want you all to tell me that 'Reya this might not work' or 'Reya this writing is getting too plain' You as an audience have the biggest right to tell me where I am going wrong so please don't shy away from telling me my mistakes. That's my only request. I have tried to make this chapter better in terms of writing, If there is still something that you think i can do to be better, please let me know.

And please comment. Just comment as much as you can! I need 3k comments this time!

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Aira's presence makes me feel drained of my sanity.

She's so fucking precious and inestimable to my heart that I'm tempted to lock her up in a golden cage purely to safeguard her delicate heart

My mornings start with her thoughts and days end by securing her in my arms until she says the dreadful words, "I have to go back."

I was not aware of the extent that my brain can come up with such ways to hide her from the world, however for Amaira I think of everything possible, so the world is incapable of seeing her and taking her away from me.

I don't deserve her. I never did, I never will but,

I fucking love her to a point where my mind doesn't want to believe a thought that does not have her in it.

There is a faint fear inside me whispering that being in love can ruin me, especially when it is the first emotion that I am experiencing after ages.

Love is fragile, Obsession is not.

I tried to stay away, My constant endeavours were unprosperous, The walls in my heart were shaking, For the first time My heart saw light I never want to lose her.

Never.

Not when I see the fear in Amaira's eyes. I cannot lose her, The eldritch part in me has to regain its composure. Amaira does not fear me, She doesn't require another person who acquires violence as the only solution.

My fingers dig in my palm, everyone around me rushes to the asshole who dropped down just from one hit.

Reyaansh stays by my side, His palms connect with my shoulder and with a tap, he ushers, "You cannot do this everyday if being expelled is not your goal."