Love, insecurity and pain

"speak more, don't be quiet"

"speak more, smile more
why are you always so quiet?"

No one will understand me
if i told what i feel.

i was raised to be quiet,
obedient, and easy to handle.

i was praised for not being
the problem child
and now I'm the problem.

How can i talk
all of a sudden,
when i was taught
not to talk?

I wasn't born
like this but
made like this.