All that was on Katsuki's mind was Izuku. All the was on Izukus mind was Katsuki. Why must it be this way. It was gnawing at their skin.
The glances they would give each other when they walked past one another, absolute torture. Looking back to see the other do the same. They knew the other knew, they knew themselves. It was nothing but depressing. Where was their highschool love sotry? Why must it be this way? How terrible it is to have been able to live.
Izuku did it. he slowly broke the stride. He started to ease his way back into Katsukis life. The reason was unknown, but he just.. started to.
Small talk. That was what started it. Bringing up something random and making conversations. He learned a lot. How to make Katsuki more comfortable. It was like reading a very long book that keeps going on. Except every page was something new. Izuku went from everlasting despair, to having a genuine obsession. 'Crush' just isnt the right word. Obsession would be a better fitting word, only Izuku wasn't crazy.
Katsuki tried to hold his ground, he did. But he knew. He didn't want to stop. He knew what Izuku was doing. He saw how accomplished Izuku looked after every single interaction. That's when he realized he would do anything for Izuku. He really loved him. That's what made his heart heavy.
How could he love a boy. One he treated so poorly his entire life. The one he had made fear of going to school. The boy he wanted to fail so he wouldn't achieve his dream. Why did he even do all of that? Why was he such a horrible person. Why did he have to be this way. Why must he be alive. Can't he just stop being terrible and finally rest in peace, for everyone to not have to walk on eggshells? What is wrong with life. How hard is it to be anything at all.
Izuku started to feel rather weird. The days started to blend together and he started to lose sense of time. He was falling back into a hole he tried so desperately to get out of. He felt hopeless. With katsuki, being a hero, and everything. Why was he feeling like this, he was just doing better.
He was on the worst case of autopilot. School, train, the occasional villain attack. He was so out of it all the time. He always felt tired and it was hard to get out of bed. He never could feel normal, could he? How cruel being a being was.
a/n
jeez I'm feeling angsty lowkey projecting myself on izuku and katsuki 🤫
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they knew. || a bkdk story.
Fanfictionkinda angsty slow burn bkdk story. I'm so tired of the storys where it makes izuku a little twink that cries alot, so I'm trying to not do that. I've never wrote things like this before but I love bkdk so I'm trying. ♡
