Because Of You (Sequel to Love & Lies)

Chapter 34: Three

Okay, so I lied. I came back because I don't really have another wave to ride. In fact, I just didn't know exactly what wave I wanted to ride. I realized that a lot this week and thanks to an angel whom has commented on my "Discontinued" note (THANK YOU @LoveHS1D THIS IS FOR YOU!)

She's made me realize that I should tie up my loose ends and finish this story; because I owed it to you all and to myself. And I may actually have a good idea for a new story (a Calum story!!!!). Enjoy babes because I'm sticking to this wave for a while.

>> Jenny <<

I opened my eyes to the blinding white around me.

White.

Here.

There.

Everywhere.

As my eyes adjust, I look down to see my body frail, swallowed up in a polka dotted gown.

A hospital gown.

My belly was still round, maybe even rounder than it was the last time I remembered.

How much time has passed?

I look to the door of my room, slightly a jar, the buzz of the hospital faint.

I look to my right, there is a machine; checking my vitals, my heartbeat, my baby girl's.

I look to my left and I do a double take. There to my left, was the love of my life. Sitting there, staring straight at me.

His curls pushed back with a headband. A light scruff coating his face. His face swollen, his eyes blood shot.

He knows.

"Harry." I speak for the first time in what seems like ages.

"Janine." He says, his face hard.

I look away from him. I can't even look at him, knowing that he knew.

"How long has it been?" I say, picking at my nails.

"A couple of months now." He says, his voice raspy and weak.

I nod, still avoiding his eyes.

"Janine." Harry says, his voice ordering contact with him.

I look up from my hands and into his piercing green eyes.

His eyes, now filled up with tears.

I feel myself crumble.

"I'm sorry." I whisper, hearing my voice crack.

With that, Harry shoots up from his seat.

"Sorry? You're sorry?" He says, his voice becoming harsh. "You lied to me Jenny! How dare you even lie to me? Do you know the hell I've been through these past months? They didn't think you would wake up, Goddammit!" He yelled.

"Haz, just please let me explain..." I say, trying to calm him.

"Explain Jenny? I don't want your explanation! I made Quinn come here to tell me. I had to hear it from your cousin! You could never just sit me down and tell me, 'Harry, I have a rare blood condition that will put me at risk and I may possibly die. No worries though, you still get to keep the baby.'?"

I sigh. "Just sit down. If I'm at least going to die, let me get to speak for myself, alright?"

Harry sits down exasperated. "Just talk, Jen."

I don't speak right away.

Instead, I use the moment to gather my thoughts.

"When I first got pregnant, I noticed that I was bleeding. I panicked and I thought I was having a miscarriage so I went to Quinn. When she ran tests on me, she saw that the baby was still there. So when she ran some more tests, she came back and diagnosed me with a rare condition called Subchorionic Hematoma where you hemorrhage during pregnancy up to the point of childbirth, until you bleed to death. She gave me the choice to abort the baby or to keep it and hope I survive even if it was a long shot and I chose to keep her Harry. You know why?" I pause to look at his face.

"Why?" He says weakly, tears streaming down his face.

"Because I love you and this is what I wanted. That even if I couldn't have you, at least someone could. Our baby girl, babe. That's all that mattered to me and still does." I say, tears now escaping my eyes.

Harry sat on my bed, and leaned in to hug me. A feeling so familiar, a feeling I would miss when I'm gone.

I inhale his Calvin Klein cologne, because God knows how much time I have left to smell it.

Time.

"Harry?" I say, pulling away and wiping my tears.

"Yeah love?" He replies, doing the same.

"How much time do I have left?" I ask, rubbing my round belly.

He sighs, his breath shaky.

"Three days. Your due date is in three days."

There's like two more chapters left! This was my intention for the story the whole time so don't think I just came up with this on the fly.

Sorry if this is upsetting for any of you but this is what I wanted and I hope you stick around. x